the lawrence arms - navigating the windward passage

well. that was interesting. i had an insanely long day of work. i left the house at 9:25, came home for about 10 minutes around 4:45, then worked at the aquatic center until 9:20. it all wasn't too bad, just.. nothing especially good either. you know how it is.
however, since today was my first day at the aquatic center, i'll tell you how it went. got my shirt, found steve, followed him around like a lost puppy for most of the time. they have a snow cone machine in the lifeguard's room, so i had a couple of those (they're good!). probably the highlight of the night was when we were sitting on the washing machine and dryer in the laundry room, and i picked up a couple brooms and started a broom fight. steve ended up breaking one of the brooms, and (i think) i won in the end. anyway, it was pretty funny, something unusual to remember since from now on i'll probably be working all by my lonesome. the actual working part isn't bad, except for the gloves which make my hands so sweaty it's like i just washed them and they're dripping with water.
i wonder about myself sometimes. i know i'm not a "normal" girl, as some people would put it. i don't live my life by guys and socializing and shopping and stuff like that, no matter how much i might come across like it sometimes. i'm pretty laid back about a lot of things, i don't actually care about girly things except i usually don't have anything better to do. i... i don't know where i'm going with this. i mean, look at my life. sure my closest friends are girls. but how many are there? 3? 4? something like that. and not many girl aquaintances who i'll just hang out and spend time with. it's mostly guys because, well, i guess i just relate to them better. but is that a good thing? sometimes i wonder. if i'll always be the cool laid back girl and never the one... nevermind. i'm just trying to pity myself and i really have no reason to.

no song at this moment in time. punch drunk love is a strange movie.

so yesterday i was thinking, we've all changed a lot in these past couple years. i mean, if someone had come up to me in seventh grade and told me the following, i would've laughed right in their face. 1) brian would be an australian-accented chronic fiend. 2) evan would be a sexy hunk of man meat with no slick womanizing skills what-so-ever. 3) josh would become the ladies' man of the group. 4) anna and i wouldn't speak to each other after we left jr high. 5) tuey would become a bondage freak. 6) liz would be considered more normal than me. and there are probably a bunch of other strange things that have happened, but those are the most obvious. it makes me wonder where we'll be in just a few more years. i mean... we're juniors already. this year we'll be taking tests and turning in college applications and writing essays that count and we're already driving and working and getting paychecks. it's just... it's so strange. time passed so quickly. next thing i know i'll be in college wondering whatever happened to those people i hung out with all the time? and i'll be looking back on these days and either smiling or regretting the things i did but i can't possibly know what i'll think now. so i just have to try to make the choices i think i won't regret and hope that i get enough second chances.

the briggs - unfriendly

i swear, i've found the newest and greatest way for me to save money. forget zumiez discount - it's goodwill, ross, and tj maxx for me! i got 2 new cd's today, well okay neither one is 'new', but i got the no doubt cd i used to have, and the real version of the sublime cd to replace my burnt one. so yeah. cool huh? and i got these cool aviater sunglasses that i'm takin to work with me tomorrow... 50 cents baby... now that's what i call cheap.
also, dick's burgers have got to be some of the finest fast food burgers i've ever had. i don't know if wendy's can live up to these high standards.
i saw ryan today!!!! i was workin' the pool table ('cause jesseca likes me) and he just walked by.. and i was like waitasec.... ryan!!!! and ran up and tackled him 'n jesseca was understanding 'cause i told her how long it's been since i saw him. so yeah. he talked to me for a while but then jesseca kicked him out 'cause we're not supposed to have long personal conversations at work. but he stopped by regularly through the day and made things bearable for me.

allister - racecars

yeah... today was a good day, definitely, but i feel kinda... iffy.. about things. everything was great fun, don't get me wrong! but josh... i dunno, it's like, we're friends and all, sure yeah. but we rarely ever actually do stuff... like, i love to just drive for the hell of it. he says he does too.. but when i ask him to drive with me, nope, he wants to do something with someone else. and today, he says he's bored so i invite him over to watch a movie with us, finally hang out with some of my friends and all that. and he leaves after about half an hour to go watch a movie with aaron.
anyway, just a little bitter. good friend of mine isn't being so great these days.

generation x - kiss me deadly

why do i always think people want a minute-by-minute update of my life?

pennywise - bro hymn

woke up wanting to shoot myself at 6:30 am this morning. my ears were killing me (and still are). and now i have a swollen gland behind one side of my jaw, but that might be from the last piercing that got infected. i dunno, i'll leave them in for a week more and see how it goes. last night i told tuey to come to my house after she drove her mom to work at the buttcrack of dawn, so she showed up just a little before 7. took off around 7:30 'cause my dad was bitching about why i wasn't getting ready yet. 'round 8 we left, went to jack in the box for breakfast and drove to kent so he could buy some computer chip or something from staples. he ended up getting me to buy a bunch of school supplies, too, so now i've got all this shit sitting around my room making me depressed. i need to find a way to stash it in my closet or something for the next month.
got home... tuey came and picked me up and we went and refilled the water cooler things she has. went to wendy's and while we were sitting eating our food we started feeding a seagull. it's our new pet, we named it sea gal. i dunno but i think that was the best part of the day, us talking about driving and her cousin jack and her peeing on me to wake me up. just, really funny stuff. so then we drove around for a while.. when she took me to the bank i saw these lifeguards from wildwaves, and i was wearing my lifeguard hat i stole, and they followed me back into albertson's and were asking me about it... i was like, umm yeah i work at wildwaves... suure.... it was pretty funny. then went to go see mallory... mallory's so funny, i swear she's insane but it was fun. picked up jon and went grocery shopping for mallory and came back to her house again... then got brandon and went to best buy and i bought lots of new stuff! it makes me happy. so we came back to my house and watched boondock saints for a little bit, and then they left and now i'm listening to eve6. so yeah. hurrah!

desaparecidos - greater omaha

so my parents are finally understanding all those arguments i've given them about why i should have a cell phone. i go out a lot, my plans change. i don't always have a phone around to call them. payphones add up. and when i do call, there usually isn't anyone there to take my message. and at least this way, they could check in on me any time they wanted. they agree with me now. but of course, they put it like this: "your father and i have been talking about it, and we decided it would be a good idea to get you a cell phone. after all, (see reasons above)." like it was all their idea. anyway, they're going to get me unlimited minutes at least... they're going to look into the other options and such. i'll pay for it by continuing to be their slave until i go to college. which isn't a problem.
this is so creepy... i mean, time is just passing by. and soon enough, it's just going to be me and my parents in this house. i'll start school in september (remind me to start reading my ap books before then), mid-september i'll get my license, and about a week later, brent will be gone. and by that time i'll have a cell phone and a credit card. crazy!