don't let the smell stop you

Friday, May 21, 2004

hot water music - drunken third

i need something to do... something right now... i kept myself occupied all night long, haven't slept since i woke up yesterday around 11... but now it's getting toward the evening again and i need to find something to do again or i'm going to just pass out. and i don't want to do that yet.
this morning was very cool. after scoring almost 6 million at pinball, jon and i sat at the beach and talked while waiting for the sun to rise. unfortunately it was cloudy so it never actually rose... it just got brighter outside. later i got tons of coffee at ihop with him and devon, where we ate breakfast and talked to the waitress. i've decided i need to pull more all-nighters. but with other people.

Thursday, May 20, 2004

social distortion - sick boy


i got this nifty new thing that lets me add pictures without trying to use angelfire as a host. (you'll notice, if you look at my old posts with pictures, none of them show up, even though my angelfire account still works.) so anyway. this is what i did for christmas.
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ohhh, i think i'm in love... with the gym, that is. it will probably pass in a couple weeks, as all my loves do, but right now, it feels like it will last forever.
brent's going to a huge party on saturday... 15 kegs, 60 acres on an indian reservation. i so want to go... and i can't wait for college.
i threw out a bunch of shit from my room today. all my papers from school, the packets from english... the stack of papers was, i shit you not, a foot high. or more.
watched a little bit of reservoir dogs with scott today, read a little anna karenina, set out my math but didn't do any... just basically a lazy day, woke up late, took a shower late, did everything late. the biggest thing i did today was rewrite some of the lists i'm constantly making.

ramones - i wanna be sedated

driving home just now. the streets were completely empty. it reminded me of that night last summer after the concert, when so very much happened and we were literally up all night. when we walked the streets and sat on the steps at saghalie and eventually got some coffee when starbucks opened. it was a good night. i wish tonight i could find something like that to do, someone to wander with, something to do until the sun comes up again. it's not very often that i feel this awake, that i could keep going until this time tomorrow night. i want to try it. but there's nothing to keep me occupied.
anyhow, i spent most of the night over at tuey's, first watching footloose, then noggin. i don't get the cool cable like she does, so she was filling me in on the whole degrassi plotline. and then it was daria, and i was satisfied. the stupid crane fly was really irritating, though.
i got another jones label today! stole it from luke right before he was going to throw the bottle away. the cap was no good.
oh! and i found three dollars in my pocket that i didn't know i had, and i still don't know where it came from!
blahhh i am so ready to go out and do something. i'll probably be asleep in an hour.

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

swingin' utters - twenty three

it's really hard to concentrate on keeping a normal conversation when the person you're talking to isn't wearing a shirt.
today is just full of embarassing moments for me. it was terrible. my shirt got all sweaty while i was mopping the floors - and i mean this in no small way. the back was wet. it was gross. and of course jamie made fun of me for it. then i left my purse in the shopping cart at fred meyer, didn't realize it until half an hour later. fortunately, it was still there when i got back. i'm really really lucky. really. my day hasn't been a good one for self-esteem.
however, some good points. the dye experiment from last night didn't go so well - it was only after i'd done it that sarah and i figured out it's supposed to make dark hair lighter. it was this reddish brown color, and it actually looked okay... except for my dark eyebrows. so i came home and dyed it again (even though sarah warned me not to under penalty of death). and it turned out nicely! later at the gym, jamie said it makes me look more tan. personally, i think it makes me look paler. whichever way, it makes my face look healthier. and at the gym... oh, man, i'm going to be feeling this tomorrow.
let me think. what am i doing tomorrow? math homework. since i haven't done that at all these past 2, 3 weeks. refill prescriptions!
maybe go to the aquatic center early and actually do those 2 week skill requirements this time? and cut my hair again. that was it.

Monday, May 17, 2004

fleetwood mac - landslide

today's full of snap choices! hair-wise. right before work i decided to chop off about 2 inches. after the gym i grabbed some dye and i'll probably be cutting it shorter later tonight. let's hope it looks good when i'm done.
work was really kinda fun today, but i don't know if teaching lessons is my thing. i'll see how it goes. maybe it won't be so bad. but... 3 hours? 6 classes? ouch, man.
my mom is already trying to hook me up with job offers up at western.
and hey! i kept up with ray and josie in weight training today. i am so getting faster already. but the trainer guy i talked to today says running isn't good for you beyond 20 minutes... oh well. running for long stretches of time makes me feel good.

Sunday, May 16, 2004

green day - macy's day parade

i got my membership to 24 hour fitness today! it was really complicated too, with me driving home twice trying to make it back before 9. that was part of the whole parental signature thing. but! it was worth it, i saved $150. then i ran a lot and sweated a lot and took a nice clean shower with the scented soap and came home and watched law and order with my mom.
work was cool today... i was in the control room learning how to do the time stuff. those people are.. weird. but i guess that happens when you stick 4 people in chairs behind huge glass windows and no one ever notices them. all this stuff about ares vs. hi-tech, pat taking sides w/ the winner, and how smokey's title is the bear, like jesus the christ and santa the claus. dick had me call some guy down on the other side of the pool and talk to him, and when i asked the guy if he was deaf, they officially decided i'd fit in.
if i can do this and lifeguarding all summer, i think i'll be okay.
i was thinking about this as i was driving home from the gym today. there's this remake of the audrey hepburn movie "sabrina", where this woman tells the girl that paris is a place to spend time only for yourself, to find out who you are. maybe that's what i need to do. not go to paris, although that would be great. but spend time for myself this summer. well, wasn't that what i was planning on doing anyway? read good books, work a lot, go to the gym and just relax. don't stress about things the way i've been doing all year. just take it easy.