moneen - tonight, i'm gone

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unsung zeros - intermission

If the world should end, and we both die tonight.

I'd have no more time to say the things I might.

Had I known that this last hour would come so soon.

I'd have spent the last year speaking just to you.

And they'd be awkward all the things I would have said.

And that's the reason they have not been spoken yet.

But they mean too much to let them go unheard.

Even if I cannot really find the words.





1) How old will you be when you move into Housing?

{18}

2) I would like the room atmosphere to be:

{Some study, average noise, socializing common}

3) I go to bed on school nights (Sun-Thurs):

{Between midnight and 2 am.}

4) University Residences does not condone the use of alcohol by underage

persons.  My attitude toward use of alcohol in the room is:

{Very accepting}

5) I am comfortable with visitors in the room:

{Frequently, 3-6 hours per day}

6) I generally keep my room:

{Generally clean, but I tolerate a mess.}

7) I struggle going to sleep:

{If there are visitors making noise.}

8) I understand that roommates sharing a room often choose to share

certain items rather than have duplicates. In general I am:

{Willing to share most stuff if asked first.}

9) Smoking is prohibited in all housing and university rooms and areas.

My personal attitude toward tobacco use is:

{I don't smoke tobacco products and would like a roommate who does not

smoke.}



just filling it out made me all jittery. i'm thinking about the day i move

in. i hope i can get into buchanan towers. sure, it's a long way from campus.

further than fairhaven. but who cares? i can walk fine. and you should see

the rooms! you have four-person suites, with a stove, sink, fridge, and

"sitting area" between the dorms. plus the usual bathroom. eight stories.

402 students. housing open during winter and spring break. no pool tables,

though... that makes me a little sad. but! there's also fairhaven. they have

three pool tables. again, pretty far off campus. their dorm rooms are really

tiny, too. so maybe i could luck out and get into edens south? that's where

brent is this year. it's a "quiet" dorm, but that doesn't really mean much.

right on campus. huge rooms. right in the center of everything.

and then higginson.. where all the doors are on the outside. people walk by

the windows at all hours of the night. and of course they piss over the

railings! nice sized rooms, 4-person suites again. i really don't want to

share a bathroom with a whole hall.

mostly i'm looking forward to having people around, 24 hours a day. i'll

never have a problem finding a midnight coffee buddy ever again.

speaking of midnight coffee! i love pat like my left pinkie. he and i

and my brother all went to denny's last night for a few hours, drinking

coffee and sharing stories. it's the stuff i wish tuey could do all the time,

but of course she has the whole "normal sleeping hours" thing. but hey, i'm

not complaining! i've got a new friend now! and maybe i'll get lucky. maybe

we can find more people to come.

i'm running low on painkillers now. panic!

eels - fashion awards

Let's go down to the fashion show
With all the pretty people that you don't know
We'll sit down in the velvet chairs
They'll hand awards out for best hair
And if we don't win one, well, then
We'll blow off our heads in despair
We'll blow off our heads in despair

so cole 'n i are talking about him and genesee gettin' back together. he's got the date planned, his attitude, when he'll kiss her and everything.
mistacole17: should it be on the lips
mistacole17: probobly
missinglunchbox: of course.
mistacole17: in public, like on the bus
mistacole17: ?
missinglunchbox: no, someplace romantic
missinglunchbox: like.. i dunno. someplace where there aren't creepy bus people watching

cole's so pretty. gen'll have to take him back.

eric clapton - tears in heaven

brent comes in and sits on me, waking me up.
brent: how's the little druggy doing?
me: *groan* go 'way.
brent: you've been sleeping all day!
me: i was up for three hours... *pull pillow back over head*
brent: fine. but you have to hear this song.
and so he played tears in heaven. and now i'm sad.

311 - love song

i am queen!
today's story time, starting at midnight: brent and i playing pool with chanel and mike. chanel takes off because her aunt was going crazy, and mike treats us to some excellent taco bell. we sat around his grandma's house for a while, looking at empty bottles and such. he showed off his pimpin' sound system that weighs down the back of his car. so then brent and i went home. and sarah went crazy psycho on his ass (well, she thought she was talking to me) about certain life choices i've made. and he told her off good. oh, how i love my brother.
anyway, then i called up pat to be an insomniac with me, and after a bit of shuffling about and making nice with the older ogre brother, i made it outside unnoticed and found that pat had brought friends! so. it was a cool night. we went down into this ravine with a trail going all through it. i was having horrible flashbacks to this summer at dead man's cove. yeah, the trail was like that. endless! except it was dark and cold, too, so it was a real adventure. coming back home, my dad was up and right next to the door when i walked in. smooth, oh yeah. well, i think i'm okay, i was just out a little later than usual. so i slept for 4 hours or so..
up bright 'n early when sarah called to hang out. i took a nice shower and made myself pretty, but i was feeling slightly nauseous from the mix of red bull before bed. so i met her at the mall and didn't feel very social around her.. she's not very exciting. a very negative and judgemental person. people like that are hard to be around. i had her take me to the bank and hairmasters.. 'cause those assholes cut it unevenly yesterday. but this cool gay asian guy did it this time, and he did a great job! a few snips and trims here and there and it's perfect! so then i just kinda got towed along as she went store to store trying to find an x-box for ryan. eventually she found an incoming shipment at gamestop, so she was planning on sitting around the store for the next hour or two until they came in.. and i gave up. i walked my ass across 320th back to my car, and went grocery shopping instead.
so.. not sure about what time it was when i got back, but i was feeling pretty lousy. i guess trying to run on very little sleep + caffeine for the last 3 or 4 days was catching up with me. so i crawled into bed while brent used my computer, and took a nap. oh, baby, that was the best. that was the highlight of my day up 'til then.
woke up groggily around 5 or 6. ate my last solid meal for the next few days - mm, chicken curry and rice! it was fantastic! headed off to work, where i had one of the easiest days in work history! absolutely no one came to public swim. i sat behind the counter and talked to alyson and jamie, rob was off painting something for his mom, and god knows what trisha was doing. but hell, when we can actually pull off having all the lifeguards totally obsorbed in something in completely different parts of the building.. i dunno, it was just awesome. i was getting that giddy feeling you get when you break the rules and don't get caught.
so after. mike called me to watch a movie.. and no offense to him, he's awesome and fantastic, but no. just no. so i went to jamie's where we made a gingerbread house! and played DDR. heh, i feel like an idiot now. at kenny's the other day they got me to try it.. i sucked ass and said i'd never play again. then i was sitting there watching clark play. and clark, he was on one of those tournament DDR teams that compete and win lots of money and do all these choreographed moves and stuff, before he joined the military. so he was going nuts doing all these turns and neat jumps and psychotic fast footwork.. so i gave in, i tried it again. and i guess everyone's right. it really is fun once you start. so jamie and i were fighting over the second mat for a while, before lindsey got bored and decided she wanted coffee.
so we got coffee! me, her, ryan, and his new boy eric all piled into lindsey's huge ass truck, and drove to starbucks. more about the truck later. but i love it. so yeah, i didn't know what to get... ryan finally got fed up with me and ordered something like, a peppermint mocha with an extra shot of chocolate and a triple shot of espresso. i'm not sure about anything except the triple shot of espresso. hell yeah! i loved him. so i'm wired again, from drinking all that. we got back to jamie's, but she was being kind of testy with everyone for being loud and obnoxious. so lindsey and i looked at each other and had one of those brain-connection moments. we were going for a drive!
and this is where i became queen. lindsey let me drive her truck!!! oh baby! i almost died. i named it hank the tank and drove him all over the place. the gas pedal is really touchy, so you press it to the floor and fly. we took him down through the neighborhoods by redondo, around dash point, over to norpoint and into the twin lakes neighborhood where lindsey used to live. but i am so hardcore, i got her lost! at one point we ended up at the ravine where i'd been earlier. but then we got lost again. so finally lindsey and i headed back to jamie's, but i gotta say, driving the tank around is the highlight of my break. out of all the things i've done, people i've met, rules i've broken, stupid stunts i've pulled... driving that truck around set me free. i feel powerful and confidant and invincible! nothing can take me down now. of course, when i crash from this caffeine high, i'll feel a little different. but pretty soon i'll be too drugged to care anyway.

dandy warhols - bohemian like you

you've got a great car,
Yeah, what's wrong with it today?
I used to have one too,
Maybe you'll come and have a look.
I really love your hairdo, yeah,
I'm glad you like mine too,
See we're looking pretty cool, look at ya.
So what do you do?
Oh yeah i wait tables too.
No i haven't heard your band,
Cause you guys are pretty new.
But if you dig on vegan food,
Well come over to my work,
I'll have them cook you something that you'll really love,
Cause i like you,
Yeah, i like you,
And i'm feelin so bohemian like you,
Wait,
Who's that guy,
Just hanging at your pad?
He's looking kinda bummed.
Yeah, you broke up that's too bad.
I guess its fair if he always pays the rent,
And he doesn't get bent about sleeping on the couch when i'm there,
Cause i like you,
Yeah i like you,
And i'm feeling so bohemian like you.
I'm getting wise,
And i'm feeling so bohemian like you,
It's you that i want so please,
Just a casual, casual easy thing.
It isn't? it is for me.
And i like you,
Yeah i like you.

i made a new mix today! liz's suicide song, been caught stealing.. daft punk techno.. lynard skynard. it's a completely eclectic mix of music for listening while driving. which i've been doing a lot of lately. shit.. so... i'm feeling kind of dumb right now. awesome night out with liz. she bought me slippers for christmas which didn't fit.. we stole aprons from the safeway employee room, and drove around for a while with corey and terry. not such a bad night, considering how it started off! i'm still kind of mad, though. for more reasons than the obvious. i mean, shit, they didn't have to ignore us the whole time.
anyway. i'm getting up in a few hours.. but tomorrow will be cool. i'm buying a new beanie!