don't let the smell stop you

Saturday, January 24, 2004

maxeen - soleil

matt, james, and william were all no-shows. story of my life, you know? make plans, they fall through.
took the sat's bright and early this morning. ugh, you have no idea the pain i went through with that. the last two sections, i was so anxious to get out of there, i barely paid any attention to what i was doing. and halfway through the whole thing, i started thinking about how 'grind' is a really dirty word. that screwed me up big time.
so i came home. and i read, and sat around, and didn't really think about what i was doing. next i knew i'd fallen asleep and i woke up around 5. 7, alan and tommy called and they came over, then we went out to watch butterfly effect but of course, me being the only person under 17, they checked id and i couldn't get in. hooray. so we went to target, but the kicked us out.
and then off to walmart! yeah! that place is the best. tommy and i dug all the way to the bottom of the dvd bargain bin. it took a long time, too. and tommy cut himself. anyway, i got two new dvd's. suicide kings and "about last night..." i'm too bored to actually watch them, though.
i'm talking to william now, his parents made him go to a play, but he says he'll come over tomorrow. i hope so, i love that boy.
wow. there's almost no enthusiasm in this post at all.

Friday, January 23, 2004

dispatch - the general

actually, i've been listening to greenday on repeat. i think i went through the cd three times? anyway, work consisted of mopping, knocking over the bucket and cleaning up the spilled suds, and finally getting to know and like shahid, now that today was his last day.
left early and got hair dye. dyed my hair. i like it.
now i'm going to start reading a book and i probably won't get to bed before one am, even though i'm taking the sat's bright and early tomorrow morning. wish me luck on those!

Thursday, January 22, 2004

maxeen - love goes a long way

okay so i was running loose on the web and was reading someone's livejournal.

"On one side, i'm really amused at the world in general... And a lot more relaxed and focused.

On the other side, ARGH!
I mean, REALLY ARRRRRRRGGGH!
X(
What is wrong with people? Is the only way of having a conversation to go for a topic i'm absolutely not interested in?
I've got an idea!
I'll just pretend i'm a piece of meat with eyes, and no brain, and then we'll all be happy.
Can it be really worth it?
I just have this itch to just shake off everyone... Are they really that stupid, or are they just purposefully deaf to everything i say?


I feel lonely."

awww, i feel all warm and squishy inside. someone knows how i feel!
also, i just found my old friend danny on the 'net. it's weird. i haven't talked to him since before travis died. and he's got this cool tribute in his profile - he and travis were the best of buds.

In Memory Of Travis Reierson:

I have fought the good fight,
I have finished the race,
I have kept the faith.
2 Tim.4:7

March 21, 2003, at 4:55 pm.

our lady peace - life

okay, imagine a slug. blow it up so it's about the side of a bench. put jeans and a t-shirt on it, and place it in a chair.
that's me right now.
i am so tired, it's unbearable. i mean, it was bad enough this morning when i looked at pat, so comfortable laying in the middle of the floor... how i envied him. but the feeling's just gotten worse all day, like i need something to hold me up or i'm going to fall flat on my face. running before work didn't help much, either. i was hungry after, and still hot and kinda thirsty, and in a giant building that feels 80 degrees or more at all times... miserable. the actual work wasn't too much fun either. took up all my time, so i didn't even get to sit around in the guard room for a while.
oh well. i did see ryan, and that boy is funnier every time i talk to him. this time he was getting dramatic about not working this weekend. i mean, i thought that was a good thing?
soon as i got home my mom tried to convince me to go out and get the mail. but no! i'm not moving from this spot (until they leave)!

Wednesday, January 21, 2004

dandy warhols - bohemian like you

soooo school was the same as usual. wait, although! i got my dozen krispy kreme doughnuts today for donating the hell outta that penny drive for leukemia. so i gave lots of those away and ate them too. they were very yummy.
after, liz and i drove around for a while, went to the bank and totally ran nuts in the dollar store! she got shampoo and stuff and i bought a huge ass bag of skittles for tuey's collection and a bunch of cheapo books.
then! oh then! we came back to my place and she took a shower while i ran. and when i got back we stood around my bathroom forever just talkin', y'know, girly stuff. and eventually we got a move on and i got to drive her to see jason, the ever-elusive boyfriend! he's pretty cool, with a mohawk and nifty pants, and we also stopped in the middle of the road to look at bears humping a tree.
yeah.
so then i went to the library for an hour or two and sort of studied for my math final, though not really. i am so screwed for that thing... oh well.
and then and then and then! off to stephanie's! that's always fun, even though these days there's kind of a pissed-off mood all the time. stupid boyfriends, messing up my friends' self esteem. so we sat around and ate food while laura lectured her on what she needs to do, and i'm sorry, but i have to admit i was the natty conscience-type friend and agreed with laura. tuey needs to do something - nothing's going to change on its own. so yeah, then we sat around her room and talked about her dumb internet academy and how we could kick brandon's ass and why ryan has better friends than us. annnnd thenistartedplayingsimsagain. shhh. i feel bad, i do this every time i'm over there now. i'm not just using her for the game! really! i swear!
while steph was gone picking up some work, laura came down and had a little chat with me. and i promise i didn't gossip with the mom too much! but y'know, it's hard not to agree with her - things have changed, personalities and relationships have changed, and highschool drama is just dumb. it was really funny, though, at one point. laura was like "yeah well you seem like you haven't gotten yourself messed up over a boy." dead silence for a couple seconds while i looked at her, then started laughing, and quickly told her the very chopped-down story of last april/may. sooo, yeah. and of course when steph got back "you talked about me while i was gone didn't you." well, duh!
so after a looong time of putting it off, we finally got around to the whole reason i was at her house - to become pot heads! not really, just literally. we took the huge cooking pots from her kitchen and ran around with them on our heads while megan took pictures of us. haha, it was hilarious! we kept bumping heads while trying to pose and steph actually ran into a wall. so, yeah. those were good times.
then tonight when i got back i started to fill out my accident report form thingy, but the girl's dad called and when my dad told him about the damage he was like "um, yeah, that was my daughter's fault." but he doesn't want his insurance to go up or anything so we're doing an under-the-table deal, no court or forms or anything. and thank god! because that was a huge form and i really didn't want to fill it out tonight.

Tuesday, January 20, 2004

mighty mighty bosstones - someday

what an exciting, event-filled day! just wait til i tell you about it!
school was boring. voila.
after school i got prescriptions and dropped liz off.
and then! tommy brought me donnie darko! ahhh i love that boy! i hardly expected him to go out and buy it that quick, but he did, and i love him! i am now the proud owner of another very cool movie. my collection grows.
so work? whatever. no, it was awesome! my 24 year old was there today... heheh, sorry tuey, can't help it, i like the older ones. and even if he is 24 years old, living with his parents, a lifeguard, and still working his way through college... he's got personality. and that's always a big point. he follows me around and hides from the bosses, 'n says as far as it matters to me, he's only 18.
so i left in a pretty good mood, and it only get better when not TEN SECONDS after i pulled out of my parking space, someone backed into the front of my car. so i pulled over and we stood in the freezing cold writing down our insurance information on the back of my car by the light of her headlights. it was her fault though, my dad says, so he's really proud of me for just being the victim. and apparently we'll be needing a new front bumper.
anyway. nice night, eh?

Monday, January 19, 2004

exploited - sex and violence



so while i was at steph's, i ate the last of her lucky charms. she got maad! and now she claims my running won't do nuthin' if i keep eating all those calories and it's my fault she never eats breakfast now and if i ever complain about my stomach again she'll poke it and shout "lucky charms!"
how i love that girl.
anywho, ran this morning, again, i really hope i can keep this up. went to indian food lunch with the family and that was good. came home and did homework a little bit, mostly spent the day BORED!
and then my savior! dan! we watched wayne's world (!!!!) at his house and ate grilled cheese sandwiches and looked at his lizard. then we watched family guy at my house for a while and almost played cards but neither of us knew the same card games.
so we went to stephanie's! and we looked at her pictures and played with her stuff and i started a new game of sims. my guy, jamison, has a mohawk and plays the guitar. he's cool. and the girl's a skank... well, she will be when i'm done with her at least.
so now i'm home and i'm going to study for an anatomy test tomorrow.

Sunday, January 18, 2004

freeway

ha-har! real redneck, white trash quality film we got here, folks. freeway, a new take on little red riding hood vs. the big bad wolf.

"my dick may not function, but i have not lost my smile."

dandy warhols - bohemian like you

okay, so. this morning i woke up and ran and showered and all that jazz. my parents decided not to go to church today. so i set out to get stuff done at the library, but forgot it opens at one on sundays. so i ended up at tuey's waiting for it to open, and didn't get a move on until 2. then of course i had to come back at 4 to watch invader zim! and, well, after that i got caught up playing sims on her computer and didn't realize time was passing. next thing i know steph's like "hey, um, chelsea? i'm gonna go now but you can stay here if you want." which it then clicked that i'd been playing that game for almost three hours without saying a single word to anyone. heh. it's like pinball and tetris all over again. i swear half the time i'm over at steph's i'm not paying attention to anyone, just sitting there doing my own thing while the world goes on without me.
and now i am bored out of my mind with nothing to do and no money. argh!

gary jules - mad world



that is ryan's tattoo. jack cunningham is a god, and so is that tattoo, and so is the owner of that tattoo, ryan. i plan to get a nifty tattoo like that as well, only it will be a lizard curled on my ankle (ouch!)
oi. so today was much tons better than i barely expected. beyond the trivial errands i ran earlier in the day, jon 'n i ran around doing crazy shiat. got my mom's earring backs, dur, then ran off to the dollar store and got ketchup and mustard bottles to fill with arby's sauce to score me points with elaina's boyfriend. haha! oh man, great and wonderful fun going on with my favorite person to spend a day with. we went to taco bell 'n had a straw fight, filled our water cups with soda and talked about butt buffing. eventually i had to take him home, though. oh well.
so thennn i came home and used a tiny bit of david's kick-ass wrapping paper to wrap tommy's b-day gift with. then off it was to tommy's house! 'cause rhianna was having a party the same night there really weren't a lot of us there - by the time memento was over it was just the usual group, me tuey brandon luke and tommy. so we watched donnie darko. ohh great fun! full of luke yelling at terri for calling us in the middle of the good parts, me 'n tommy grinning like fools 'cause we knew what was coming up next, and me 'n steph complaining about our poor, sore, aching legs. then we went through all the extended scenes, with me and tommy, being obsessive, talking about how much more everything makes sense with those and we all agree that they should have a version of the movie with every scene in it that you can watch straight through.
so then here i am, home again. church tomorrow morning and of course i'm not tired in the least. however, brandon and steph are going to winter ball now (don't ask me how we all convinced brandon to give in - i'm not so sure myself). so now at least there'll be a kind of group to fall back on if all goes to shit and we end up hating everyone there by the time it's halfway done.
ouch. wrist starting to hurt again. i really need to find a way to fix this position.