allister - somewhere on fullerton

i pulled out my warped tour cds today, and finally remembered why i ever got into punk music in the first place. it wasn't about the talent or the "cool" thing to do. i'll even admit that the bands i liked the most off that cd aren't the hardcore ones, but the sappy ones. because they made me feel happy. and they made me feel good again today. i'm feeling less serious about finding sophisticated music, artsy music and music that can stand up to criticism. why listen to intelligent stuff when there's some cheap crap out there that makes you want to smile and dance for no good reason?
the other day, as i was walking down the stairs, scott came up and tried to scare me. i didn't react, just looked at him and kept walking. he said to me, "chelsea, you haven't been any fun since you started being serious." and he's right. i've been noticing it since the sun came out again, since i started caring less about school and work and looking forward to talking to people again. i haven't been excited about anything all year. i've been listless and stressed and generally unhappy. and i haven't been any fun. but in the past week alone i've felt it all slowly dripping away. it's the sun, too, i know it. this is why i need to go to college some place warm. summer has always been my favorite time of year, not just because of the no school thing. i love the warmth. being outside and feeling the heat soaking into my skin. even when i'm hot and sweaty from the humidity, i love it. the warmth just obsorbs into my skin and sinks into every part where i've been unhappy or lonely, melts it away and just makes life feel good. i feel good about myself and less critical of the people around me. i'm more willing to try new things, meet new people. not willing, really. i've always been willing. but i really want to now, and i go to an effort to do it. i love this feeling. i love this time of year and all the hopes and expectations that are building up.
i took a nap today. it was the best nap i've ever had.
some people from work got together and went out to red robin tonight. ben drank down his lemonades faster than the waiter could supply them - finally he just left a stack for ben to work on. ryan got the whole group of us to clap and sing with the staff every time they clapped or sang at another table. poor brooke was bent over the whole night in pain from wakeboarding and sunburn. amy didn't bother changing out of her swimsuit, just wrapped a sarong around her waist and was good to go. it was wonderful, even if i did miss out on the mini golf later.

modest mouse - summer

augh, soooo hot today! the part i will remember with the most joy was when i stopped walking around work and sat in front of the fan. cool air blasting straight into my face, sound of the fan filling my ears and my hair flying all around. it felt wonderful.

postal service - nothing better

"are you racist?"
"yes!"
"okay cool! .... no, but seriously, are you racist?"
"nope."
"why not? all the cool kids are doing it."
i'm not thinking about all those tests next week. oh, and i forgot to call craig again. but i have a good reason! my mom wasn't feeling good so she came home, so i was talking to her all between school and work. there's this ugly dog that keeps wandering around the neighborhood, he doesn't belong to anybody, and ever since i played with him the other day he keeps scratching at our front door. my mom won't let me keep him. =( so, yeah, my mom and i talked outside for a while, me laying on my back in the driveway with the little dog on my stomach while my mom sorted through the mail and told me all about her day and this movie she wanted to watch tonight.
we did watch the movie. it's called beaches. chick flick!!! it was terribly emotional. i think i cried through half of it (although.. that's not such a big deal. i cry at every movie.) sad and uplifting and the people who made it were probably gay, because they knew exactly what it would take to tug at a girl's heart.
and to make myself stop thinking about the sad, sad movie, i'm going to read my book about jewish concentration camps and terrorist acts and wonderful things like that.

modest mouse - float on

got tickets for incubus today!
here's my prediction for this summer. i'm going to work a lot at the aquatic center. (shit, i forgot to call craig again. tomorrow. REMEMBER. tomorrow!) so right, working a lot. and i'll go to lots of concerts (hopefully no more crazy punk shows. i don't think i can handle much more screaming/injuries like that. i think i'm going to start checking out other venues, too.) like last summer, lots of time spent with tuey and brandon, and hopefully some new faces too. i'll read a lot - spend time outdoors and start running more, or swimming, whichever. i don't care as long as i get more active.
i doubt summer will be exactly like that, though. i just hope i can get up to seattle more, and spend lots of time outside. that's all. maybe i'll invest in a frisbee.
other than that... oh, i don't know. scott's going to this gothic fashion show, i'm so jealous... but it's 21+. and i don't have a fake id yet.
i'm trying to throw away more of the junk in my room... it's hard, though.
can you tell i'm just looking around and writing whatever comes into my head?
i'm going to go buy shower curtains now. and some cd's.

sublime - april 26, 1992

every month or two, someone locks themself out of their car at work. today it was chris. "hey chelsea, do you know how to break into a car?" i knew i should've bought that book all those years ago.
sooo... my schedule's actually pretty busy this week. sunday won't be the relaxing pre-ap test day i thought it would be. nope. i'm going to a concert. hopefully.
cold isn't getting any better. not at all.

gorillaz - starshine

i've gotten into a huge reading kick lately. well, okay, i'm always on a huge reading kick. but now i have a list to work from, instead of just randomly grabbing something from the library (although, some of the best books are found that way.)
it's been gorgeous lately. the sun and the warmth, with the cool breeze blowing. it's beautiful beyond words. for example, today, brandon and i skipped sixth period. we waited at tuey's house until she got home (she has no 6th. she didn't have to skip.) we piled into my car, put in sublime and drove to the supermall. going down peasley canyon road was the best part of the entire day. the trees have leaves now, the undergrowth is back, the entire road was literally surrounded by shimmering bright green and sunlight. the soundtrack, as well, was amazing. there's nothing quite like driving on a sunny day while listening to reggae music.

mclusky - to hell with good intentions

"that'll screw up a wet dream."
tanning, cleaning, murphy the homeless dog, and the neverending errand trip.