less than jake - look what happened (the last time)

wonderful day! so brent and i actually took off around 12. drove... lots of driving... and good loud music! when we got to long beach, we weren't exactly sure what to do. so we wandered. we wandered lots and gazed at the kites and looked at the waves and just relaxed. and eventually we climbed the sand dunes, sat down, and fell asleep. i guess brent didn't sleep very much, he heard a lot of people laughing and wondering about what we were doing. and i guess we did look pretty weird, both in gray sweatshirts with our hoods up, blue jeans, asses to the waves and underwear out for the world to see. it's a great memory, i love it.
the rest of the day... didn't get much better. saw elaina and michael but that was it. oh yeah, and i left my purse at the subway in montesano, so we tried to get back before 9, but we missed closing by like... 10 minutes. so my dad's gonna be the superhero and go down and get it tomorrow while i'm at work.
umm... other than that... i don't know, today's just been absolutely awesome. i mean, brent and i spent the whole day together and we had fun. we cracked jokes and talked seriously and didn't fight at all. and now, well, to sound really girly, i've just found out this really awesome guy i met earlier this summer still likes me. yeeeaah! done now.

finch - post script

long happy dreams last night, involving sears, a zoo, and a library in a caboose. i'm looking forward to leaving for long beach in an hour or two. brent and i will spend most of the time walking around by ourselves and being tourists, and around 7 everyone will pop out of their work places and come see us.
for some reason lately i keep thinking about school, and i'm actually happy that it's going to start. not the school part. i just want to see people again. and it's weird, too, because there's really no one specific i want to see again. i just want another start. another chance to do what i want.

didn't want to miss today, add more when movie's over.

the fisher king

ahh, that, above, is a beautiful, wonderful, hilarious movie! there are so many moments, i swear to you, you have to watch it. i'm going to be on the watch to buy it now. just... it's so hard to describe, it's got robin williams in it and all these hilarious things... just watch it!
anyway... today... work went by really super fast, which was great. some punk ass kid got me in trouble, and another kid shouted, tweaked out really, over a game josh was running, and that had me laughing for a full hour after. after work, bussed home, tuey called me up and asked did i want to go to a concert? hell yes! so we went with shauna to wendy's and ate good food (some bastard teenagers took our booth!). and then off to seatac mall parking lot! where we watched go ahead live, for free. they were fantastic! we got the cd. then we went shopping. then we came home. and brent and i went out to rent movies and found that ^ gem, an alltime classic, in the top 10 of all-time best movies we've ever seen.

suicide machines - i never promised you a rose garden

ahhh, yesterday. i am truly a girl, for there's no thrill quite like finding the perfect pair of jeans, cheap, and promptly buying them. after work i ran into kolbi, who is having a hell of a time with the staff at work. everyone's ready to rip each other's throats out, and she's the cause of it. it's completely unreasonable, and i really wish i'd been there to see what happened this morning. anyway, we walked around the mall, shopped a little, and she gave me a ride home.
i think it's becoming some kind of habit - every night brent and i go out and do something around 10. last night we went shopping. it was hilarious! i guess it's hard to imagine grocery shopping being fun, but there were just a bunch of little things that made it all great. you know how they mist the vegetables? well someone put up strobe lights and a speaker that plays thunder music, which comes on right as they do that. and of course, the fact we had a credit card and could buy whatever we wanted helped a lot. lots of soda, pizza, bread, and cereal. and apples. it was nice.
last night the dream was actually really cool, a new one and one i've had before mixed together. i don't remember quite exactly how it started, but this guy was in a helicopter being taught how to use a grenade launcher. then, in the middle of some ceremony for the enemies, he walked right in and belched and sat down next to the leader and started cracking jokes and causing a disturbance and confusing the hell out of everyone. then someone died, and he went down to the house and found the daughter of the couple who lived there. she was old-ish and slightly crazy, and kept talking about her brother swimming and his secret. so the guy went down to the water where she said he'd been swimming, and looked up at the stars and notices something wrong with the constellations. there was a star next to this other one that shouldn't have been there. there's like, an elephant constellation or something, and around the head is a clump of 3 stars in a triangle. and this time there was a fourth in the middle. and there was just this feeling of incredible excitement and... then liz called and woke me up, saying she made cookies for me. that was actually the third time someone had called this morning, but so far i'd been able to fall back asleep. not this time though. so now i'm up and i guess i have to start the day.

generation x - one hundred punks

so much for better dreams. i was with a group of people, we were driving at first. and we were talking about strange things we see other drivers doing. and trying to call the next thing we'd see. like, a guy driving without shoes. and we saw a hippie with his feet on the dashboard. then it changed, and we were walking along and ended up at some guy's house. (i've noticed in my dreams, they're all just random guys without a face.) and we were sitting around in his room, and i fell asleep in his bed. and i swear, when i woke up, i was almost afraid to open my eyes because i thought i would still be in the other bed. somewhere in there, either before or after that dream, there were these two guys crash landed on an alien planet, with their own little escape pods. and there were millions of other people too, with their own escape pod-ish things. and everyone else was walking around in love with these giant red see-through lobster-ish things. and the two guys weren't falling for it. one lobster thing came up and picked up a pole from the ground, put it on a pod, and started spinning it like a propellar. and one guy decided he was going to try to go home using it like that. then these two green gelatin praying mantis type things, came up and put gelatin green stick in their mouths, and they fell for the praying mantis things and started following them around. then it became like a cartoon, with stick figures. they followed them into the water and came back out, and ran into a cactus, went back in the water, came out and ran into another cactus. and i remember feeling so sorry for them, and wishing they'd stop running into cacti.
anyway, i really don't feel like doing much of anything today. but i guess i have to. work, clean the bathroom, and read my ap books. damn.

breaking benjamin - polyamorous

last night i had one long dream. i remember lots of random things about it. it was at a camp. at one point tuey and i were walking around finding all these people with brightly colored hair (later, when i was awake, i realized everyone's hair looked like my slippers). at one point, i did something horribly wrong. and this one guy said he would keep me out of trouble, like not tell, if i would have sex with him. and you know what? i agreed. which, now that i'm awake, is absolutely horrible and i'm ashamed of myself for it. but! once we were alone and it was coming down to show time, i started thinking. i saw all the ways that people could react when they either found out what i'd done wrong, or when this guy started telling people that i had sex with him. and i realized that i'd rather get in trouble than let this guy fuck me. because i really didn't want to have sex with him. so i told him that, and i got up and walked away. i'm proud of myself for that. but then again, does that last part sound familiar to anyone else? ah well. time for bed, and maybe i'll have happier dreams tonight.

finch - what it is to burn

i worked at zumiez today! and, well quite frankly, i'm in love with that job. i get to stand around, fold clothes and move displays and listen to music and talk to the other amazingly cool people in there. i wish i could spend 6 hours a day there, instead of at wild waves.
well, whatever. after work i went to tuey's, ate a burger and fell asleep on her couch. came back to my house, liz came over and we didn't really do anything, as usual. blew bubbles out my window and brent came in, and we all talked forever. around 8:30, steph, brandon and i went out into the street and blew more bubbles. it was so hilarious, brandon was getting mad at the bubbles and trying to pop them all, and at the same time imagining himself as a super villian who blew bubbles. the bubbler, i think it was.
after they all left, brent and i drove to north bend. no real reason, just felt like doing something. turned up the music and talked about how great life was, and why. talked about what we wanted from life and what we've been through that went wrong. about friends and just... stuff in general. it felt great.
earlier today i wasn't feeling too good about things. but now, after that drive, everything seems great. life in general is looking good. i'm still a kid, i can still enjoy life for 2 more years without the full responsibilities of being an adult. worrying about college and classes.... sure i still have to go to school but i can still complain, because i'm still being forced to go. college is a choice. i have 2 years to just... enjoy myself.

death to smoochy

busy day... forgot to call zumiez, even though tuey tried to remind me telepathically... i just hope i didn't have to work today. went to registration. it was so weird to see all those people again who i hadn't seen all summer. like, whenever i did see them, it was all a happy reunion and joyous short conversation before life moved on. now, it's like, school's back and i'm not going to talk to you because my friends are here. but yeah. i got the classes i wanted, weight training, marketing, biology with hunt, ap history with frederick.
liz and brandon bummed around my house before i went to work. work, ummm.... mini water fight with brandon (not black), not much else.
brent and i wanted to go see open range. we're buying the tickets when the lady tells us it's r, and brent, being oh-so-smooth, is like, shoot, she's not old enough. so we left and went to hollywood video, didn't get anything, went to 7-11 and got ice cream, now we're watching death to smoochy.
"i'm rainbow fucking randolph, that's why!"

autopilot off - wide awake

okay so today, i was working, and this little girl was complaining that she had to pee. she was maybe 2 or 3 years old. so her dad lifts her out of the stroller and has her spread her legs, and pee right there on the pavement through her bathing suit. i just kind of watched it happen, not sure what to do, too busy laughing on the inside to really stop them. some guys watched this happen and i just kinda grinned at them and was like, well, that's a new one! now that i think about it, i probably should have told a lead or something.. but nah, it was too funny watching people walk through the "puddle" and not caring when their feet got wet from the "water".
my light went out today, so now i'm living by christmas light. i don't care all that much, it's just kind of annoying that i can't make it any brighter.