student rick - heaven is a place on earth (cover)

let's see... yesterday was eventful! spent all before school in the math room, danced with liz in the middle of the gym after an assembly, and thoroughly enjoyed weight training. after school, took a test and sent my film in (finally!) and went to the mall, where i ran into pretty much everyone i didn't expect to see. at 6 i went and got jeff, and we drove aimlessly around for an hour, talking and listening to the radio and and kissing at the red lights. we got to steel lake at 7, and it was cool being back in the manse, but i still don't like many of the people at the youth group. maybe i shouldn't say that, since i didn't get a chance to meet the new kids. but the old ones were still there, just as annoying as before... oh well. it was still really fun! we went to this haunted woods thing, which was supposed to be supremely scary. jeff and i were walking around behind the group, him pointing out stuff and me laughing at everything they did to try to scare us. eventually the group made us go first, which really didn't change anything, except we got to see everything first! so yeah. after, jeff 'n i were going to eat at wendy's, but it'd been taken over by everyone after the football game, so we went through the drive-thru and i got food, and jeff didn't eat anything, of course. we tried driving to steel lake park, but steam started billowing out of the hood of my car, so we didn't. i stopped the car in the middle of a residential street and we sat on the trunk looking at the stars while it cooled. we were both freezing our asses off, and he held me to keep me warm. i've decided to put a blanket in the backseat or trunk for situations like this, since they seem to happen quite a bit. anyway, around 11, when the engine had cooled and wasn't making any strange noises, we got in and i tried to drive jeff home, but it started twacking out around 1st ave. i didn't want to risk killing the car, but it hurt even more to ask jeff to walk home... but he did, and i still feel horrible, but also very, very grateful, because i barely made it through my neighborhood. every time i tried to hit the gas, the car would lurch and there would be this creepy grinding sound... so i pretty much coasted through the neighborhood, coaxing and praying for the car to make it... i did, and i parked and jumped out of the car and ran into the house to tell my dad... i couldn't help but notice katy outside next door, laughing her ass of, though. and i have to admit, it was pretty funny. anyway, it's all okay, the car's in the shop and should be fixed by the time i get back on tuesday.
this morning i took the psat's. i'm starting to think i shouldn't have. after all, aren't they supposed to give people the wrong idea about what the sat's are like? oh well. it's too late now. i don't really care how well i did, but i am hopeful that i did moderately okay. the whole reason i took them was because i heard that colleges are looking at psat scores now, and it'd be bad if mine were really low. but yeah, jon was in the same room as me for the test, and it was good to talk to him again. it's been too long since the last time we hung out. after everything, my mom came and picked me up, and i came home and i just woke up from my nap. now i have to shop for last-minute business attire, and start my giant pile of homework for the next week. joy!

aerosmith- janie's got a gun

ohhh, um... i don't know. just another busy day i guess. i have too many of those, and not enough lazy ones where i can't quite remember exactly what we did. another thing is, i know i have all this stuff i need to take care of, but it's practically impossible to keep track of. well, whatever. i'm holding up. there's just been too much growing up this year, that's all.
i just need other stuff to focus on. jeff's wonderful, really. i doubt i'd be even half as happy if he weren't around.
hey, you know what i've just realized? well, okay, back in the day, i used to kinda keep my room clean. or i'd at least try. and now, i look around and i want to laugh... no one besides myself has been in it for so long, i just don't care anymore. there's stuff all over the place, and not even the usual clothes and junk. i mean, i've got 3 cases of soda right by my bed, one full barq's, another half full barq's, and a 24 pack of diet coke that i knocked over a couple days ago and the cans are just kinda spilling all over the place. .... it amuses me.

too damn lazy to get rid of the goo goo dolls cd

it's pretty sad that i can start predicting my bad nights. right now, i'm sitting down with a big bowl of soup and a(nother) big fat library book. i plan to hide in my room for the rest of the night.
oh, such a loser i've become.

i was thinking of a song. i forgot it.

i really don't know how i held up all day. it was hard, that's for sure. now all i want to do is pass out and not wake up for a long, long time. except i can't, because i have too much shit to do. damn shit, why does it have to be done??

hangover. no music.

missinglunchbox: i think i told jeff i love him
antisocialguy156: is that bad?

i wish i was one of those drunks who forgets everything. remember when i said i won't get really really drunk for a really really long while? i mean it this time.

still goo goo dolls

so, friday night, with anna. i don't want to get into it too much, but i guess some of the people i knew before (in my junior high days) haven't been too supportive of who i've become. so basically, anna's been hearing a bunch of rumors about me, things i've done, and such like that. i'm a little flattered that she came to me to hear the truth, but also really irritated that it's been happening in the first place. i want to go and find all those girls i used to try to be friends with and kick them. it's funny, though. to think i used to regret losing all my girlfriends.
anyway, brent's back and it's really good to talk to him again. he's enjoying himself completely up at college, and i'm jealous... i really wish i could have that kind of freedom, just be able to let go and be myself without worrying about keeping everyone happy.
he walked around at a party with some skeleton introducing it to everyone as bob.
anyway, today, more shopping and then went to see school of rock with brent and alan and some other people i've never met. then we realized kill bill's out, so me, brent, and alan saw that after school of rock ended. good movie! seriously, much better than i thought it would be.