dude! get this! my brother scott's on aim - and he's talkin to me! whoo! so, maybe i'll actually find out who he is.
and brandon just called. his ex-girlfriend's being a bitch.

hmm.. so liz and i had our first fight today.. i'm not too worried about it though. we're both tired and stressed and we really need to spend some time apart. this just... made that time come quicker.
other than that, guess what? i bought reservoir dogs for $2 at a garage sale today. been watched twice, not harmed at all, perfect condition. i love it!
umm spent a lot of the evening over at brandon's, terri let me drink the rest of his smirnoff and wasn't too pissed that i got into his md. i called elaina and talked to her on the phone for like an hour, which was really cool. we're making plans, baby. this summer, and next weekend, is going to kick booty. otherwise we played hackey sack and tried to watch my movie, but we gave up after like... 10 minutes.

mmm. brandon is sexy with purple hair. i almost got carried away and jumped him.
school, meh, it's alright. seems unbearable while i'm there, and when i get home i forget what i was so worried about.
skipped kickboxing. oops.
going to graduation next weekend! i'm gonna finally see everyone again, matt, michael, james, william, tysson, ryan... everyone! i'm a little worried about brent meeting my friends, they're not his kind of people, but oh well. he should at least like william, i hope.

i was so tired today. when i finally got everyone gone and all my chores done, i passed out and slept like a little baby.
i dreamed so much. i was at a camp, and during the night we were around a campfire and there was this freaky bear. then i got in trouble for something and was put into this weird kind of isolation, where i did absolutely nothing and no one would talk to me.
then i was with tuey at the soda vending machines, talking to other people as they walked by.
mmm, but no, it felt so good to just sleep, and then to lay in bed for like half an hour as i gradually woke up and became aware of my surroundings. can't do that with an alarm clock.

hmm, today was fun.
but my legs hurt! tuey and i woke up and almost killed ourselves, our asses ached so bad. thighs too.
yesterday, okay, didn't say much about folk life festival.
it was great, especially over by the beer garden. they had drums and stuff, lots of hippie music, and all these people (totally strung out on dope) dancing to the music. all the women were in these flowy skirts with tons of anklets and jingly beads and stuff, and just, really hippie-like. the guys had dredlocks and were walking around without shirts or shoes or anything. and then there were the real hard-core punks, with spiked out mohawks and black jackets and piercings and everything. everyone was just crowded around and under the trees, either dancing or sitting on blankets in circles smoking weed, or just watching. and all along the sides were little hackey sack circles. the whole thing was this gorgeous community of people who'd been there since friday, bright and early to late in the night, every day.
i felt kind of left out from all of it, like a little kid looking through the bars of the zoo. it's so cool, and it's not necessarily something you'd want to do for the rest of your life, but you just crave to be a tiger for that moment in time.
so basically, my goal for the next while is to find baggy khakis, shop around goodwill and other retail shops, just find comfortable, laid-back clothing that suits this beautiful, sunny-day laid-back image i have in my head. next year, tuey and i are going to skip school and go to the folk life festival every day. we'll be the ones walking around barefoot, dazed and confused, aching and sore and knowing everyone.
oh yeah, and as for today, liz and i shovelled and spread bark all through my backyard. we blasted green day and when we were done, played hackey sack in the street. got some slurpees from 7-11, ate chicken burgers... it was just really easy and laid-back. um, now, my feet are killing me and i want to die. but i had a good weekend.

oh yeah! tommy tried to run down katy and some of her friends when he drove us home tonight. they ran. it was funny.

hahaha... brandon's little brother christian left me a message while we were playing hackey sack in his garage: not to be an ass... but you guys are fucking loud!
oh well, what could we do?
gooooood day today! got up bright and early, took the bus to seattle, wandered around for hours, played hackey sack with complete strangers, hung out at brandon's for hours. good stuff. i swear, next year at folk life fest., we're going to have the best time of our lives. me and tuey have it all planned out...

had a long, long conversation with brent tonight. talked about lots of stuff, useless things and important things. dreams, memories, all sorts of junk. one thing that stuck out most, though, what just how much i adore him. the things he said, were a lot of things i never thought i'd ever hear from anyone. at one point, when i was talking about sixth grade.. he broke in and just went off about iacobazzi (i think that's how you spell it?). and how much when he heard what i was going through, he just wanted to go down there and break the guy's nose. he's never been more pissed off at anyone in his life. "i wanted to see that guy writhing in pain for what he let happen to my little sister." ... it's just.. amazing. i know he cares, i've always known that, but it's never really sunk in how much.
other than that, we talked about robin and sam and how disappointed we are in both of them, what went wrong and our reactions toward both of them... brent is honestly one of the real nice guys that i know. he's not an ass. he doesn't have ulterior motives. and he doesn't care what other people see in him, either.
and do you know, he likes liz? her and tuey. he says they're both two of the only true, real friends that i have. it's nice to know that someone else sees that. and i'm especially happy to know that he likes liz.