the briggs - one step behind

this is kinda random, but y'know, i think it's good i went through all the confused emotional shit a few months back. 'cause now i can look back at how stupid it all was, and keep myself from doing it again. calm and level-headed. laid-back. i can do it.

hot water music - wayfarer

my mom tried to wake me up at 7 this morning, silly girl. no way i was getting up that early, on the first saturday of the school year. i rolled out of bed eventually, and we got going around noon.. so i missed the time for taking my written, i guess i'll take it next weekend or something. actually, we tried doing a lot of things. never got my film, never found out my work schedule, never got shoes. school shoes, at least. i got some purty ugly ass running shoes for weight training, i love them to death! um.. so yeah, just usual shopping, undies 'n pe stuff... forgot to get school supplies, oops. i ran into brenda and nick at the food court! i talked to them for a while, took their picture with my nifty keen camera phone. that's actually what i did all day... me 'n my mom played with our cell phones. we'd be shopping, i'd walk around a corner from her, and she'd call me to find out where i'd gone. silly girl! i took some pretty pictures, of my box of tampons and the dog... i dunno it's been a really lazy day, with nothing to do except homework, and i really don't want to do that.
oh yeah! i got orthodics for my feet today! i figured i needed them after we walked around for just a little bit and my feet started killing me, and first my hip was popping every time i stepped, then my knee... i don't want back problems either... so instead of getting new shoes and giving up my gorgeous vans, i got orthodics. this way my feet will be healthy and i can still kick ass! but i think i'm gonna put my new shoelaces in them soon.

jimmy eat world - seventeen

son of a bitch. i lost what i was writing.
school is really starting to suck, and only after the second day. there are small highlights, like running into liz and ryan, and seeing jeff and talking to people i haven't seen in a while. but between those moments, it all seems so.. empty. everything's changed so much since last year, which is good, but it takes some getting used to. i suppose i'll have it figured out eventually, but until then, i just kinda float along and hope school gets out soon.
so today at school, i found out i'm too smart for my biology class and hunt kicked me out. so instead i'll be taking marketing with the seniors (straight to the student store for me!) and anatomy (with a waiver from hunt so i don't have to worry about biology). that's a plus. because i think i'd go nuts sitting next to bryce and hearing his anti-popularity complaints all year long.
tomorrow i start down the road to get my license... scary stuff... my mom and i are going to be out most of the day shopping, but if i get back soon enough and all goes well, i might be going to club impact with ryan! that's pretty exciting if i do say so myself.
called tuey again today. it's probably going to be a habit now.
oh, that's right! i got my cell phone today! it's charging, but it'll be ready and rarin' to go tomorrow. i'll be handing out the # soon, but remember kiddies, i only get 200 or so minutes a month, so no calling just because unless it's the weekend (unlimited weekend minutes!). but it's so cool... it's got a camera and everything!

breaking benjamin - water

so the first day of school is done and over with... it actually wasn't too bad, i'm pretty psyched to get the school year rolling. math and history not so much, but i'm really looking forward to weight training. i'd forgotten the kind of pumped energy i get when i'm in a weight room. i can't wait to start running! and also, i met two really cool underclassmen today.
after school was nifty. me, brent, and liz all laid around my room for an hour or so, just talking and relaxing and throwing stuff. jeff showed up and we went shopping for soda, then came home 'n didn't do much of anything besides watch mallrats. but! brent and my dad are going off on their camping trip tomorrow! so for the next week i'll have a couple hours all to myself after school. don't think i'll be home alone tho! hell no, i'm invitin' jeff, and later tuey and liz and everyone.
but yeah, here's where the crap starts: i already have an assload of homework due monday. i think i'm gonna work on that instead of calling liz back over here.

cooter - spring training

hello children! it's the last day of summer... scary, huh! so today liz and i went to the mall, bought clothes and stuff. i bought lingerie... shhh, don't tell my parents! haha. but yeah so then we went to the dollar store and got lotsa stuff, including balloons for jamie's birthday. and we waited at the bus stop. and while we were at the bus stop, one of the balloons floated away! it came right off the string. we talked to liz's friend oz, he's really cool, i've been hearing about him for years now and i finally got to meet him! so when we got off the bus, the second balloon got away, and is now stuck in a tree outside my neighborhood. sucks, i know! so tonight liz and i decided to go to peking wok for dinner. i'm inviting all the kiddies i can find and it should be fun!

h20 - all we want

so today started out just right. my mom crashed into my room at 7:45, panicking because she thought she'd lost the dog. she could hear him but had no idea where he was... i found him in the garage. after that i really didn't have a reason to go back to sleep, so i took a shower and got dressed and cleaned the house and all that jazz. around 11:30 i went to liz's and we sat around until her parents got home, then headed over to my house. jeff came over around 12:30 and we all just sat around my room most of the day. watched slc punk. around 3? jeff and i went to 7-11, liz stayed behind to sleep and dig through my room and use my makeup and such. came back and sat around my room some more (sounds like a fun day huh??). eventually liz took off, a little while later jeff and i went out. we walked to pizza time to check on his application (they're not hiring), dropped off my film to get developed, and ran through every sprinkler we could find.
got home and the guy painting the house did our door, and put up a huge paper thing across the porch so people wouldn't touch the door. i got inspired and wrote "abandon all hope, ye who enter here" across it. it's silly, i know, but it's funny too and i like it.
so umm, i was going to write more but got distracted. poor tuey, she has to go to school tomorrow! oh well, not like one last day's that much different... but still, poor girl. already we've started with the, "i'll call you when school gets out."

slc punk

so yesterday, scott came home and he, me, and tuey all went to starbucks for coffee. we sat around outside, he smoked and we talked and it was.. it was neat. i enjoyed it. i got a picture of him in liz's hat, sunglasses, holding a cigarette, and looking about as french as humanly possible. he talked about getting me mace and a knife to protect myself, which would be really cool. i told him about jeff, and the concert and everything. you know, i never thought i would trust him more than my parents. but i do. he seems to understand me and where i'm coming from, and if not, we both just accept each other's problems. it's like, we mutually tell each other whatever the hell we want, knowing we won't tell mom and dad about it. it's great.
i fell asleep last night around 11, i think, and woke up at 1 this afternoon when scott knocked on the door and walked in. i was like, what the hell is happening, huh?! and then i really woke up, and got up and took a shower and all that jazz. we watched slc punk and went out to dinner at azteca with my parents. my dad drove him to his apartment and i drove us home. it was neat. i'm really psyched about getting my license in a couple weeks.

last stop suburbia

i can't believe i actually pulled that off... do you know, i'm still expecting someone to be like, hah! i know you weren't where you said you were going to be last night!
anyway, i will gladly share with you what i did.
first of all, saturday morning, went to work. a parakeet attacked juan, me, and jesseca, then this dude caught it and the commotion died. so work took forever. but finally i got off and turned in my stuff and that was it - home free! no more wild waves! so i got home and cleaned and changed and packed and headed off to jamie's. i really ticked off her mom by asking to drop my stuff off at steph's, but hey, what do i care if her mom's mad? i left my stuff on her porch and then we were off to seattle. for a concert! yeah! we found sean, jeff, and kirk and we got up toward the front of the line with some people we knew from school. and... oh lordy, that was the most beautiful concert i've ever been to in my life. the first set, the early november, wasn't much better from when they opened for taking back sunday and the starting line at the graceland. once senses fail got onstage, i was off to the mosh pit with kirk and jeff, and boy-howdy was that fun! i don't know where all the energy came from but i went all out.. some girl called me a bitch and tried to start a fight but i told her to fuck off and kept moshing. i had jeff's spike bracelet so i even had a little protection from the bigger people out there. we stayed in the moshpit for allister and home grown, then came out and got some water. jeff and i were both completely soaked in sweat, but it was beautiful all the same. there's just something about a small area, packed with people, dim lights and loud music that makes things just.. surreal. i still can't get over how great it all was and how much i enjoyed it. we watched the starting line; they were alright but not too impressive. i got a bunch of stickers and an early november poster signed by ace (lead singer). i couldn't find a ride home at first, which caused a little panic attack.. but jeff saved my ass and gave me a ride home, though i had to sit on his lap the entire way. really uncomfortable, but i was right next to the window, speeding down the freeway in the middle of the night. it was gorgeous, my entire face went numb. they dropped me off at tuey's, who, it turned out, wasn't home. so i broke in through her mom's window and called her and told her what's up, then took a shower. made some crackers and cheese and such. tuey and brandon got back from the movie and jeff showed up a little later and we all just chilled around her house, taking it easy and relaxing. you'd think, after a 4 hour concert, i'd be exhausted, right? hell no! i had so much energy... after we drove brandon home we watched slc punk, and after that went on a walk. went to rite aid, saghalie.. jeff was running around picking up the lids to storm drains and dropping them, tuey was high and tweaking out over every sound, and i was incredibly energized and skipping around everywhere. we must've made an interesting group! we sat on the stairs at saghalie for a few hours, then went to starbucks and i got some chai while tuey and jeff sat around and we got warm (this was around.. 5 or 6?) when we got back to tuey's, she passed out on the couch and jeff and i started to watch antz.. he fell asleep and i took a picture and fell asleep myself (probably around 7 this morning, i think). tuey's mom called at 9 and we were up after that, well okay steph kept sleeping. she was.. tired. we covered her in a huge mound of blankets and she would move every half hour or so, say something or make some random noise, then fall immediately back to sleep. jeff and i had a huge freakin' long conversation... i'm seriously amazed with this guy, he's incredible. i won't go into it too much, steph reads this and she's already heard it, and i'm sure you don't want to sit through it either. so jeff took off around 11:30 and then steph and i went to wendy's, got some quick food and now here i am, back at home! my feet hurt and i'm exhausted and i keep spacing out... but it's such an unbelievable feeling. this was the night i was hoping for all summer. it'll keep me going while i wait for next summer so i can do it again.