rammstein was on the radio

ohhh i don't have any song to burst into. so i'll tell ya what. i worked for 6 hours today and i work at 7:30 am tomorrow for another 6 hours. i went to jeff's after work and we ate pizza and watched movies and played with his puppies and kittens. i just got home and i'm going straight to bed.

our lady peace - made of steel

today i found out my teachers elected me (along with about 15 other kids) to fill out an application for an outstanding junior award. i'm still trying to figure out if i should bother or not. only 5 girls will be chosen, and unlike the 10 or so girls "competing", i've done next to no community service, no sports, no school clubs or activities... i have nothing special that makes me stand apart, besides academics.
anyway, i spent the whole day after school with jeff. we drove around forever trying to figure out something to do... got applications at papa john's, i bought cd's at best buy,.. drove around aimlessly for a long while. finally we ended up at his house, and watched tv and at pizza and his animals fell asleep on me. seriously, emmet, his basset hound puppy, just kinda draped hisself across us, and this little kitten kept crawling onto me and sleeping. it was cute, though. later we went down to his garage and played with the strobe light, and listened to my cd's, and yeah... good clean fun.
so now i'm home and i've found out i go to work at 8:30 tomorrow instead of 7:30. so i get a little extra sleep than i thought.

swingin' utters - next in line

blash, growing up really bites the dust. i think i should look into prozac.
today i worked. it really wasn't bad at all, and if it were always like this, i wouldn't be so determined to find a new job.
see, irene's been sick lately. and tonight i guess there was a diving meet, plus the big meet this weekend (state, i think). so she called in tasha so twice the slave labor could get done. it was so nice to finally talk while working... we pretty much dinked around and did all the work together rather than doing one job each. and it wasn't so bad! i mean sure, it was still work. but talking... you have no idea, really, how nice of a change it is to talk to someone instead of working in silence and isolation for so long. although the actual physical labor wasn't so bad, the three hours seemed a lot longer than usual... still not sure if that's good or bad, though.
anyway, i've done my homework (not math, though. too tired to bother with that.) my parents are off at a homegroup potlach, and i can't stop thinking about december. it's going to be so nice when they're gone... me and tuey having free reign of my house. sure they'll call in to check on us, but we can handle that. and yet... i can't help but think that it will only make my life harder. i'm already itching to get away from my parents. whenever they're home i can't concentrate, just hiding in my room or getting out of the house, so i can be away from them. (see? they just got home and now i have this incredible urge to get up and shut my door. it wasn't bothering me before.) i mean, they'll be encouraging me to be even more independant, to get even more attached to living by myself. well, okay, with tuey. but that hardly makes it any better. i mean, living on your own with your best friend, free to run around and invite people over? it'd be like going off to college, only in the comfort of my own home. i'm going to love that freedom, and it's going to kill me to lose it. but, well, i wouldn't give it up for anything, so i might as well just enjoy it when it comes. besides, i've got a month to prepare still!

rise against - black masks and gasoline

ta-daa! i did my homework today! well, a good chunk of it, at least.
i kinda think i've adopted hamilton's philosophy about the national debt and applied it to my homework. it's better to always leave a little bit to be done. that way you don't exhaust your resources trying to finish it all off. and... yeah. see? i've been studying.
anyway, today was pretty average, not too exciting. however, i've just realized that i've finally been pulling off what i told myself i'd do so many years ago. every single day, i've gone out and done something, talked to someone outside school. today donovan stopped by after school and i went grocery shopping a while ago (dispatch was on the radio!)
yah. so that's it. 'night friends.

hot water music - trademark

you see, yesterday i knew i should've put something up because i knew once i went to get cole, i wouldn't do jack. and i was right.
so yesterday was pretty damn cool! i drove up to shoreline to pick up cole, and i dunno, i think the coolest part was standing in his kitchen, his mom with her groceries, cole grabbing his stuff, and me eating the rest of his chinese food. i can't really describe the effect that had on me. it was just... it was another one of those moments. i used to have so many, especially during the summer, but lately with all the stress and the responsibility and worry and anger, i've somehow blocked out these little moments in life where i can pause and just say, "hey, this is neat." anyway, then we drove back, stopping at southcenter first to get 12 guage earrings for cole, and an application and poster for moi. then we came to my house, where we played video games for a long while. then we got jeff and came back and played more video games, and sat around my room and in the living room and just... chilled. it was nice.
so then we all went to tuey's and watched 28 days later. good movie. gorey and violent and just plain creepy. ordered pizza and decided we'd all crash at tuey's for the night. it's kinda sad though, i passed out at midnight. i was tired. the other kids had a grand ol' time until about 4 am before they all conked out.
this morning i woke up all alone... made me kinda sad 'cause last time i spent the night at steph's i fell asleep and woke up next to jeff. oh well, later we sat in meghan's bed 'n talked 'n kinda slept but kinda didn't. i had another moment then. with my face smushed into the pillow, arm wrapped around his chest and he actually fell asleep. i was watching him with one eye and the "sun" was coming in through the windows and there weren't any sheets on meghan's bed. so... after a while, i went downstairs and played tetris. umm... and yeah. came home around noon, drove cole to the bus stop 'cause i couldn't drive him up to shoreline and get back in time to get ready for work. so all day i just kinda bummed around and then went to work, which sucks ass. i had to mop bleachers. i hate the bleachers. hopefully i still have good luck with finding jobs and i won't have to be there for much longer.
now i'm home and i made tomato soup and grilled cheese sammiches - yum!!!! and i just ate a can of pears and i'm ready to finally maybe start my homework, though i doubt i will.

autopilot off - pills and smoke

they want to take my car from me tomorrow, the one day i'm really going to need it.
jeff came over today and it was fun. hopefully i'll see lots more of him this week.
cole's coming tomorrow! i'm excited.