fuel - bad day

imagine me staring vacantly into space right now. that shouldn't be too hard, considering how often i do it. actually, i've been doing that, plus a goofy grin, for the past hour.
i got my paycheck today.
you know, from those two weeks of torture at the beginning of december.
hee! i haven't giggled like a kid in a long time, but i can definitely manage that now! man oh man, i love money. hahaha! i'm rich! helloooo, ps2, baby, i'm coming for youu!

everclear - sparkle and fade

so here it is, saturday before school starts. two days to do alllll that homework that i completely forgot about over break.
and i still can't put the video game down.
i really like the snow we've got going on. and yesterday was pretty cool - alan came over, we met tommy at azteca for dinner, saw paycheck, then alan and i sat around my house for a couple more hours 'til he went home. i think i went to bed around 5 am?

antiflag - turncoat

after teresa dropped brent and i off in the federal way pool parking lot, i sat in the car while brent scraped all the ice off. this song was blasting on the radio. it was great, terrific to shout along with the song, after that boring, quiet ride back in teresa's car.
nothing wrong with all the people i was with, just... ryan, harrison, and jamie were pretty much the only ones i'd ever willingly hang out with again. the others are kinda weird, in that not-so-cool way. nice people, though.
harrison's bomb rocked my socks. you should've seen it. pop, fizzle, BOOM. and i'm really, really bad at super mario 3.

beck - loser

yesss! i am going to have so much fun on new year's! these kids i went to sharie's with, they're so wonderful... i love them... lol i forgot some of their names but that's okay, really. because tomorrow will be wonderful.
i think i found my longbeach buddies in federal way. maybe? like.. just how accepting they were. and how they're always doing stuff together. that's what i like. that's what i was looking for.
anyway, driving home in the snow was exciting! i got to watch a car skid backwards down a hill. and it took me half an hour to try to find a way back into my neighborhood (all the entrances were either too steep to even consider, or blocked by stalled/stuck cars). i got home safe, though. and pulled out a lawn chair and camped out in the driveway, listening to collective soul and munching on snow.
such a good day.

the briggs - one step behind

let's see here... didn't do much at all... work, and got to disc 2 on ff7.
however.
i'm going to sherry's to meet my new best friends in about half an hour. at least they better be my new best friends, 'cause if not, new year's is going to suck.

bush - glicerine

at one point while i was talking to my dearest friends, we got to talking about nose piercings. conversation went along the lines of how some look good, some look bad, it depends on what type of nose you have. i mentioned something along the lines of reshaping my nose so i could get a nose pierce and have it look good. later we were talking about how you could become perfect, a little bit, day-by-day... and steph and brenda both mentioned how insecure i am. not in a bad way, just something they'd notice, with how uncomfortable i am with the way i look, and how i want to make all these changes to make myself look different.
it's not just superficial insecurity, though. i'm also afraid to be myself around new people. tuey pointed it out to me, sort of - i don't act around the people in long beach the way i act around brenda and her. i'm a lot quieter, a lot more likely to let everyone else do the talking while i just listen. every time i come back, i notice all these ways i held myself back, and i'm determined not to do that again. but... it's a different situation down there, surrounded by people who i love but don't know, and not a single person i completely, honestly trust, know i can trust because i have a history with them. except elaina, and she's always attached at the hip to her current boyfriend.
anway. i found a story from 8th grade that i wrote, Fred the Friendly Pinguin. i'll probably post it up here later.

everclear - chrysanthemums

hahaha! i deserve some kind of extra-special award.
i started cleaning my room today. right now i'm sitting knee-deep (literally!!!) in piles of junk. so far! i have 4 full trash bags, plus a giant pile of goodwill stuff in the hall, and a bag of goodwill clothes (full) still in my room. see... i've emptied out the drawers of one dresser, plus my closet... and basically just shifted all the packed-hidden-junk right into the middle of my room. i still have that other dresser, and the book shelf, and all the junk that was already piled on the floor to go through. and if i ever finish that, i'll still have the walls. meh. this is probably a three day project.
it doesn't help either that i took off for about 6 hours right in the middle of it. went to tuey's, saw peter pan (again) with her and brenda. then we sat around her house forever, playing tetris and talking and -finally!- getting tuey to make us grilled cheese sammiches. she was putting it off forever, hoping brandon might show up and give her money so she could get fast food... but that never happened, so she had to give in. around 10:30's when she went to get brandon, so i came home and started cleaning again. urgh. oh! and brandon gave me my christmas present - everclear cd! yeah!
also, new quote forever:

sex lessons with laura-
now, this goes here...
i know that!
yes, but this goes here
really...

dandy warhols - bohemian like you

i meant to update before midnight, so i could kind of stay on the whole one-a-day track. obviously... that didn't work out.
it's this game, see. i start playing and lose hours.
i stopped long enough to do my nails with this thing my mom gave me for christmas. it's cool, my nails are all shiny and smooth now. takes too long to do more than once a month, though.
tuey came over for a couple hours and watched me play. ahh, the simple pleasures in life. we talked and i did jack and honestly... nothing happened. at all.
earlier today i went and saw peter pan! it was good! of course, you really have to have a little-kid mindset when you see it. and you have to like chick-flicks. so... basically... think like me. and you'll love it. i was in tears and everything. then i walked around in the parking lot for about 10 minutes, freezing my ass off in jeans and a t-shirt because i forgot where my parents parked. smooth.
i need to shave my legs. you could hide an elephant in the jungle that is my lower body. i'll do that tomorrow. no games. shave, shower (since i didn't do that today either), and clean room. possibly homework, though doubtful.