ophelia - adrenaline something

awesome! i went to a bar tonight. jamie and i got in, and got away with it. we watched chris's band play - they are so amazingly godly i think i was going to cry with how great they're going to be someday. hopefully he'll remember us when he's bigger than brad pitt.
there was also a party. and denny's, where jamie ran over a curb in front of the cops. go her.

blind melon - deserted

okay, so i found someone to give away posters to, and then i forgot to actually give her the posters. smart one.
this feels soooo good right now. i have the huge white standing fan right next to me, just this nice cool breeze blowing steadily across me and my room. i feel like a goddess. it's wonderful.
i need to mail this stupid letter! it's been sitting here for almost a month now. will the person on the other side just assume it got lost in the us postal system? i hope so.
the smell of cigarettes was wafting up through my open window a few minutes ago. it was comforting, thinking of scott down outside with his mug of whatever, smoking and thinking his intellectual thoughts. it's intimidating to have a brother as smart as him. sorry, but i just don't spend a lot of time thinking about the future ramifications of voluntary paid sterilization for drug addicts.
but brent is coming home within a week from now! i am completely pysched about this. summer will officially start for me the second he walks in that door. there'll be sibling bonding over games of pool and other recreational activities. not to mention how much his college stories will have me going insane for freedom of my own.

the la's - there she goes

there's something about a day that doesn't start out with 6 hours in a place i really don't want to be, that puts me in a better mood. i skipped school today - god, i am so terrible. but no. i didn't sleep in much, i didn't shit around doing nothing for hours on end like i tend to do during the summer and on weekends. i got up, got active. sort of. close enough. and everything has been easier. i've been in a better mood, more motivated. maybe the gym had something to do with it too, who knows? endorphins work wonders.
someday, you know, i'll be able to yell and laugh and be loud like i used to. i'll shout just so i can hear the echo of my voice. you'll see.
you should've seen the look on his face when i told him about the concert - i gave him nothing definite, just a few vague descriptions and the location. he grinned like he was 5 years old, and santa just gave all this year's christmas presents to him. i like making people smile like that.

seven mary three - cumbersome

the end needs to play more things like the top 500. long chunks of music, not the junk from their "vaults" that no one really likes, but the songs from our childhood that you just never hear anymore, because the bands that made them have faded out of existence.
i've been sitting here all afternoon downloading music and, predictably, not studying for tomorrow's test.
brenda and i decided to spend the summer in skirts. skirts like pixel's in happy campers, like the girl tromping around in her combat boots at folk life (i want those boots. and the skirt. the skirt was amazing.) i found a way to wear my see-through skirt from goodwill, but then there's the problem of a shirt that would look semi-decent with it. i tried one of my goodwill long-sleeved long john shirts with it - my dad laughed and told me i was dressed to clean, so get to it.
oh! but my purple ski hat is so very cool. now i just want a hat with the little flaps that come down over your ears.
this is my life. my possessions are subconscious replacements for all the things i won't admit i'm missing out on.

tripping daisy - i got a girl

went to folk life again today... it was fun, we got to finger paint again. last night i played frisbee in the park with jon, nick, and devon. it was fun - i hope i get to play frisbee more this summer, especially now that i have a frisbee of my own.

I got a girl who lives with me
I got a girl she smells so sweetly
I got a girl she loves her dog
I got a girl i love her dog too!
I got a girl who stares in the mirror
I got a girl who blames it on her period
I got a girl she is so right
I got a girl she's my guiding light

Well i know i need i feel we're going higher and higher
Well i know i need i feel we're going higher and higher

I got a girl who loves good soul
I got a girl who dances to disco
I got a girl who wears cool shoes
I got a girl who wears them in the nude!

I got a girl who speaks her mind
I got a girl she'll argue anytime
I got a girl she is so small
I got a girl she'll knock down any wall

Well i know, i need, i feel we're going higher and higher
Well i know, i need, i feel we're going higher and higher

Get a load of this she's always bitching at me when I'm feeling down,
Asking questions with her little frown,
I can't take much much more of this, i'm out
Get a load of this she's always bitching at me when I'm feeling down,
Asking questions with her little frown,
i can't take much much more of this , i'm out....

I got a girl i love to kiss
I got a girl i never wanna miss
I got a girl who's my best friend
I got a girl that won't even hold my hand

I got a girl that makes me laugh
I got a girl i'll make her laugh too
I got a girl she has girlfriends
I got a girl i like her girlfriends!!

Well i know, i need, i feel we're going higher and higher
Well i know, i need, i feel we're going higher and higher

i got a girl
i got a girl
i got a girl
And she's got a guy