don't let the smell stop you

Saturday, June 28, 2003

i don't know what i'll ever do without brent. he heard me, came in, listened, and even tho he couldn't do anything, he helped. "if it helps, i never liked sam." and yeah, i will feel better in the morning, and yeah, working tomorrow will help too. it's the sleeping part that's going to be a problem.

everyone fucking lied to me. great.
i knew it would happen, but still. that no one had the guts to tell me really, really hurts and pisses me off even more.
i don't know how i'm going to get through another two years of being at the same school with them. especially when all my real friends are leaving me.

Friday, June 27, 2003

friday huh? aright, well matt was at one of the camp sites, and he told me right as i was hanging up the phone. so. barely missed him and all. today was over at evan's, got my pictures from fred meyer, they look good! watched a lot of tv and didn't do much else with evan, derek, and aaron. later went to a party at alan's. it was kinda weird at first, i didn't really know anyone. met aaron's girlfriend, stephanie, she's really fun. played some pool and watched people play video games and walked around a lot. talked to a lot of the same people, didn't really meet anyone new, but it's alright. it was fun! i hope alan does it again, i really liked the people who were there.
so other than that, not a lot's new. today was really nice. spent a good chunk of time with old friends, and another chunk with new ones. i like that mix. i really wish i could do it every day. only spend a little more time outside, 'cause i like the sun and all.
it's funny. aaron says i'm getting worse since i've been at decatur. y'know, at zoning out and misinterpreting things and just... being dumb. but i think it would've happened at fed too, or really anywhere. i think i'm just naturally going to get dumber as i get older. all my life i've considered being smart as a good, but unpopular trait. so i tried to act less intelligent. and now i can't stop!

Thursday, June 26, 2003

i really, really want to cry right now. well not seriously. but it's still sad. matt called me today, he was watching the kids down at dash point state park. so brent and i hopped in the car to go meet him. and we got lost. so by the time we got there, he was gone. no call or anything. so i figure he probably just went back to the hotel or something. but still! he leaves tomorrow morning and he was so close and i still missed him!
other than that. got some dickies. that was cool. start at wild waves on sunday. heard motion city soundtrack on the radio. got tanner. talked to brent about violins and crown victorias and being italian.

great! so i didn't get to put anything up yesterday, 'cause the site was down and all. but! news!
i have three jobs now. liz and i went up to 7-11, got a slurpee and ice cream, sat down on the sidewalk like usual and talked and tanned and all. soon as i got back, my mom's standing in the kitchen with a huge grin on her face and a letter's sitting on the table. the aquatic center wanted me after all! so i called and left a message and i'll go in sometime soon and fill out the rest of the papers and everything. i start at $8.25 an hour. yeah! my grandma called while i was at my cpr class last night.
mom: chelsea's got three part time jobs now
grandma: she can't do that!
mom: she's going to try!
so yes. anyway i have my cpr/fpr certificate now, and the class got out early so i got a ride home with this girl, tasha, the other one who got the aquatic center job. we got lost in tacoma for a little bit but it was all fun. she's really cool! really nice 'n sweet 'n not at all like how i thought she would be. anyway today i don't have much planned, prolly go out and tan in a little bit. i got really burnt on my back yesterday but i don't really care.
i'm gonna see matt today! and ryan too!

Tuesday, June 24, 2003

umm... nothing really, yet. woke up. that was alright.
i had a crazy dream about fraggle rock and some people from illahee. i told tuey about it. it's hilarious!
turned in my stuff at wild waves. get my uniform tomorrow. prolly go over to brandon's or tommy's later tonight. sent in my film from last summer to get developed.
i wonder when i'll get my film back from sam? if ever?

Monday, June 23, 2003

i got a job today! another one! haha! i'm workin the games at wild waves now. i'm turning in the employment forms tomorrow and i'll meet my supervisor and everything.
the cpr class was fun! well, not fun really, but the instructor was cool. lip ring, tongue ring, thick "hoops" in his ears, and a metal bar along the top of his right ear. and barbed wire tattoos around his biceps. sexy! not really my type or anything, but it looked good.
anyway this girl i was talking to, she goes to decatur, same grade and everything. she applied at the aquatic center and got the job. damn her! nah, no big deal, let her clean toilets, i'll gladly run some games and meet topless guys all summer instead.

Sunday, June 22, 2003

today was kinda fun. drove down to ocean shores, played mini-golf, got hit on by some guys in a car on the beach, and drove home.
the beach was be-yoo-ti-ful! it reminded me so much of long beach (well, technically it is long beach, just not the town). it was all cloudy and windy and the waves were huge. it looked like the day william and matt went swimming in the ocean. brent and i walked around for i dunno, maybe 10 minutes. then we hopped in the car and drove home. we were only there for about an hour or two.
i got an interview for wild waves! still haven't heard back from the aquatic center, so i'm going and hoping they'll want me. then i've got that cpr training class. argh! i need to call the aquatic center and find out if i got the job! i'll do that tomorrow.
umm.. other than that... i saw an eagle in a tree today!