breaking benjamin - polyamorous

last night i had one long dream. i remember lots of random things about it. it was at a camp. at one point tuey and i were walking around finding all these people with brightly colored hair (later, when i was awake, i realized everyone's hair looked like my slippers). at one point, i did something horribly wrong. and this one guy said he would keep me out of trouble, like not tell, if i would have sex with him. and you know what? i agreed. which, now that i'm awake, is absolutely horrible and i'm ashamed of myself for it. but! once we were alone and it was coming down to show time, i started thinking. i saw all the ways that people could react when they either found out what i'd done wrong, or when this guy started telling people that i had sex with him. and i realized that i'd rather get in trouble than let this guy fuck me. because i really didn't want to have sex with him. so i told him that, and i got up and walked away. i'm proud of myself for that. but then again, does that last part sound familiar to anyone else? ah well. time for bed, and maybe i'll have happier dreams tonight.