weezer - suzanne

once again, spent the day with liz. i don't mind. back in the day, in 7th and all? oh, how i hated her sometimes... mostly because she was always calling me. but now i'm happy to have someone to run around with. we went to good will and tried on a bunch of clothes - t-shirts and jeans and random things we'd assembled. at one point i was dying to take a picture - me in my faded almost-acid wash jeans and a stretchy neon pink and black shirt with my hair up in a high ponytail, i looked like i'd come straight from the 80's, and her in a black-lace prom dress. with her black hair and pale skin she looked like some kind of gothic fairy princess. it was just too cool, i was dying for us to go outside and just.. walk around. heh. so then we went to the dollar store, you know, the usual rounds. we went ballistic over the good humor ice cream! yumm. and we found a bunch of cool things, like lunch boxes and storage racks and kiddy body spray.
there was this minute moment in time, about a 2-second span total. right after school i was just heading to my car and i saw tuey, she was walking in the direction i was going and brandon came up to her, you know, the usual stuff after school. meet by her car, go to his house, whatever they do every day. and it was like, this sudden realization, not like a jolt or a light bulb or anything like that, just an observation that, well, i want that. that easy, long standing relationship those two have. everything in their life is mixed in with the other's, and i envy that. ... i know why i can't, though, why i haven't had it yet and why i won't for several years. it's okay. i'll last. it was just weird, though, because later liz was talking about being in love and all this stuff, expecting me to understand, and i was just like, liz, remember? that's never happened to me, thanks.
i'm not trying to pity myself, though. actually, the thing that bothered me a lot today was when we had to draw another stupid lab for anatomy. i'm sick of learning about bones by drawing them! can't she think of some new way of teaching? but yeah, well, it's been a pretty good day! i won't go into the little details, though, because it's just my thing to smile about and for you to never understand.