greenday - f.o.d.

oh, today today today... what a waste of a day... nothing especially bad, but all the stuff that was supposed to be good just turned mediocre.
waking up was a bitch again. i took forever to get up, get dressed... whenever i get sick i lose all my ambitions. no way did i go running. no way did i even remember to take my pills. i barely remembered the whole brushing teeth thing, let alone to clean the kitchen.
eventually i called steph... and i was supposed to go to her house but i got caught up reading my journal (no, not this one, the pen and paper one that i keep). half an hour later she called me back and i went over, we sat around then went cd shopping and then went to target. eventually we made it to brandon's and i fell asleep on his couch... and i was really really messed up from the cold medicine but i went to work anyway, which dragged on.. forever. i talked to nate for a while though, and pretty much sat around and didn't do much, just took it easy. but see, after work i was supposed to go swimming with tuey and tosha... both of them bailed on me, and i was sad. i told russ and he said he'd swim with me, so that at least made me feel better. so i did swim with him, but oh, like doing laps is really exciting, you know? so i did lots of laps and wore myself out, and then after it all i laughed at bryce and russ squeegee'ing the girl's locker room. then i came home. and here i am. ohh, what a boring, lame-ass day today was. this is supposed to be break. that means it's supposed to be a break from the usual drudgery of life. it's not supposed to feel the same as every other day of the year!
i'm sorry to say this again. but now, more than ever, it feels especially true. i need new people in my life. i need to meet people who have variety in their life, who can be spontaneous or predictable, but still at least mildly interesting.
well, maybe tomorrow will be better. i don't work, and tommy and i are going to go grocery shopping. !! actually, just saying that puts me in a better mood! yes, tomorrow will be okay. i know it will.