deep sleep - love is like a rainbow

yayy so i totally called today being extremely awesome. and i was right.
so i took a nap after the car accident. had to sleep off the nerves and everything. it felt fantastic.
then i went to work and talked to jamie! she's going to wsu in august.. and until then she's doing all sorts of stuff with the dolphins down in florida. and harrison's leaving at the end of february.
you don't realize how hard it is for me to do this right now. i'm all jittery and unable to focus. too much coffee. as usual.
so umm.. okay work. rob was totally hitting on this girl doing laps, so much that he took off his shirt and got in the water and swam with her. he showed her how to stroke it (butterfly style). it was hot.
after work. called liz and i went to her house, and her mom talked to me about an antisocial girl who refused to answer the phone at her business. then we went to.. robert's? house, and there were all these gorgeous emo people sitting packed in the same room. i took one look and panicked. too many beautiful people in one place - i had to leave. so i said a tearful goodbye to ellie and went over to lindsey's, where the beautiful people are more typical preps, which i can deal with. so we played soccer! with these giant exercise balls. girls vs. boys. i was running around in these awesome snow boots and mittens, and lindsey kept falling on her butt and was soaked. exhilirating. that's the word for it. running around in someone's giant backyard in the chilly winter night with mittens, while body slamming boys so i can kick a giant rubber ball across the lawn.
then everyone calmed down and started watching billy madison. awesomely funny movie, but i haven't been able to sit still all day, and i missed my new friends. so i called pat and asked him to go to denny's. and he said yes. so i got there and just as i'd hoped! everyone had come. pat, devon, kenny, dj, louis, and even phil! even if nothing developes with devon, i hope i can spend every minute of every day with these guys. they're the best, really.
when i was little, i did the whole "hold your breath and make a wish" thing going through a tunnel. you know, from tiny toon's summer vacation? i still do it, hoping it will work. the same goes for wishing on stars. so when i used to think life only happened in long beach, i'd go through every tunnel and wish on every star that "i could find friends like the people i know from long beach." how's this for sentimental? i think these guys are my wish.
ookay, so enough coffee for chelsea, i'm putting stuff up here that'll totally make people uncomfortable to read about. i can just imagine tuey laughing at me for even saying it. but it's okay. i can deal. being brutally honest is my way of making up for a whole childhood spent lying about everything.
so. at denny's. we were there forever, 2 hours or so. just sitting, talking, drinking water and sodas, harassing the waiters. ellie and dani came later, which was fantastic. i don't know. we just shared stories and flicked straws and.. had a good time.
so 1 comes around, we finally leave. dani and i bought chocolate chips from QFC while liz sat in the car. the cashier had a knife. we thought it was to protect himself from late night shoppers, but really, it's just 'cause he opens boxes a lot. how boring.
dani's amazing. i'm totally jealous of her and ellie being best friends. she's gorgeous, and if anyone remembers my geeky stories from 7th grade.. dani was totally the name of the person i wanted to be. so it's just this creepy coincidence that makes me adore her like crazy. anyway, i took her home and snuck liz into my house.
so then we sat and talked to brent. and he's going to get a girl to knit me a scarf for christmas. and he's going to give me his hobo sweater. life is good.
it's crazy, though. these last two weeks everything has changed. i'm walking around with this kick ass attitude, and i'm not scared of anything (well, okay, as long as i'm not around any girls i don't know. that makes me self conscious.) but i redid my room, i'm taking stuff down and rearranging, i'm redoing my wardrobe. i'm going to cut my hair (again) and dye it (again). william gave me this one idea for making new clothes, so now i'm going to relearn how to use a sewing machine and try to make beautiful new things out of my old rags. i'm trying to get a job at a bookstore. oh god, i'd die if i could work in a bookstore. i'm collecting jazz and oldstyle music where the voices of the singers make you want to cry. i feel incredible.