hot water music - trusy chords

ohhhhh it feels so good to be home... i think i could die right now.
8 hours. EIGHT HOURS! i haven't done that since summer, and at least at wild waves, i had something to do. but no! not at the aquatic center. i shit you not, i sat at the receptionist desk the whole time and read a book i found in a drawer.
anyway, it doesn't matter about the work thing. today centered around liz.
it was weird, really. okay, the other day, i talked to donovan for a little bit while i was walking to weight training. i was telling him how it's been going with liz, and he said, "you know she's using you right." and it screwed up my happy content. i mean, no shit. but it's like... when you know something's wrong, but you're happy with it as long as no one says it out loud. but donovan did. so i've just been feeling pretty bitter toward her lately, again. but i guess, maybe, i'm over it? because it's gone already. believe me, that is no small miracle. i usually stay mad at her for weeks, but it was gone in... a little over 24 hours. it might have something to do with the complete lack of anything interesting going on in my life.
so, like i was saying. today with liz. she's been feeling really.. down all week, like i've been feeling the past month or two. it went away on thursday, though, and the past two days i've been trying to make it easier for her. call it a maternal instinct if you want, but she just seems so vulnerable. like she'll break if you're not careful with her. which is actually a little bit of the truth, so i guess it's not a too-far-fetched feeling. so we ran around after school and cracked jokes in the kitchen as usual, and.. well, i tried. i hope she'll be okay.
ross says he knows girls dating 30 year olds. so HA tuey, 24 isn't that bad! i kid. seriously.