briggs - unfriendly



doogers! (hah, i used to say that so much in sixth grade) i finally figured out how to put pictures up here! up there for all of you's is michael kimbrough (kimbrough!!!) and ryan (uhh... i forgot his last name!) and in between is someone's nephew.
but yeah! oh, gravey, you have no idea how wonderful i feel now. that stupid funk i was going through - poof, gone! it's like, i came to school and just felt -good-. forget the attention from the hair - i was (pleasantly) surprised every time someone mentioned it. but just... i had energy again. confidance. ahh, confidance, that oh-so-attractive quality that i've been missing for so long... it felt good to do things when normally i'd just sit back and be quiet and hope no one noticed me.
during first lunch today (since ellis seems to hate me and is making me work third lunch these days) i went into the career center to talk to... hosford, is that her name? the career center lady. i talked to her for a good long while about scholarships, and colleges, and careers, and such like that. i'm thinking i'm going to go in there and talk to her every day i have first lunch now. i mean, after all, why not do something productive when there's no one around i want to talk to? so yeah. hopefully i can finally get more involved in things, too. she suggested job shadows and the like so i can get a feel for what my interests are. see, my situation sucks. i love crafts, i love hands-on things, i like creativity and i'd kill to learn the guitar, or how to knit... but i've never been able to do it. marketing is getting a little more interesting, but not because of any of the business-related things. i want to take an art class, but because i haven't been in any of the basic stuff, i can't get into the advanced things where they go beyond the basics i taught myself.
you know, when i get out on my own, maybe in my late twenties and stuff, i really, really hope i get off my ass and get involved. take up some kind of self-defense class, pottery lessons, anything... i don't want to be boring. i want to get involved in the things that i don't have time for now.
that too. i've decided, since probably no one's going to take me seriously about this knitting thing, that i'm going to go out and find a book on how to knit, and get all the supplies, and sit myself down and do it.
there are so many things, though, that i have planned to do. tomorrow, sign up for sat's and find out more about this lifeguard class tasha and i want to take. finish filling out applications. (do homework!) eventually go to a lap swim and figure out if/how well i can still swim. clean my room, christmas shop. rewrite my math and history notes, of all things! it's insane. i really should write stuff down as i think it up, or else i'll forget and remember again at the most inconvenient times (like right in the middle of mopping the floor, when there's no way i can write it down to remember.)
saturday, i'm going to miss pat's party... that makes me very sad... however, it's a sacrifice i'm willing to make. my parents are taking me to the nutcracker!!