pulley - the ocean song

i'm frustrated! i want to be friends with these fuckers, but it's hard when they're so stupid!! whatever. maybe i'll find someone else to carpool with. maybe jon still wants a ride. i understand the whole not wanting to piss off a friend thing with jaryd, but i still don't want to drive around that early in the morning by myself.
it's hard for me to stay focused on anything lately.. i think about crew or drinking sobes or seeing david and william soon... and you know, i just lose track of the moment. i want to go do things again!! michelle's waiting impatiently for me to be able to go outside again, so we can start watching the jump cut films at the grand every weekend. i just got a book in the mail i bought off ebay about 2 weeks ago - finally! plus i've got a good sized list of books to track down. i really need to find an al's version of a book store. and we'll be cooking at OSC soon! i think. maybe in a week. whatever. and then the best part of all! i bought a dispatch cd at al's a week ago, but haven't listened to it yet because i also bought deathcab and led zeppelin. so i finally put it in and it's got a little bit of a reggae kick to it! reggae/punk that's really something entirely to itself. i love it!
and so tomorrow i get to drive to OSC all by myself (sad!) and maybe nap at the house before going to english (favorite subject. could you not tell, with my whole book fetish?) and carpooling with sarah down to crew. and sweet! i just found an unopened can of diet coke behind some empty sobe bottles! life is good.