rancid - time bomb

so! the story goes like this - william, no show. should've guessed. he went back to long beach at 10 this morning, which makes me sad but, oh well. i still had a grand ol' time today! i got my pictures from long beach developed! they also include a few drunken shots from christmas. they're gorgeous. i'll scan them later tonight when the parentals won't see them. but... they're beautiful. trust me. i love them.
i fell down though, when i was coming back from getting the pictures. tripped on the cement in front of my door, and faceplanted into the cement porch. ouch! i ripped up my knees, and there's even a small hole in the godly jeans now. and now i have hello kitty bandaids all over my knees. i feel 5 years old again! and i love the feeling.
it's funny, though. at the same time i feel like a little kid, i also feel old. too old. like. driving in the car with stephanie today, and she's talking about her and brandon, and i realized, y'know, we're not kids anymore. we're 16, 17 years old. i have a crush on a 24 year old - she's in a 8, 9 month relationship. we're not going to go back to the ol' days of innocence - from here it's just life. we're not imagining what it'll be like to be older and have freedom anymore - we're practically there already. soon our decisions won't have anything at all to do with the limits our parents set on our lives, because they simply won't be able to stop us. it's crazy.
and so i feel old.
but, anyway. i also got a dress for winter ball today! we had fun at the store, we grabbed lots of pretty dresses, mostly just for the fun of trying them on. but we only had an hour, and the store was low on staff, so they kicked us out of the fitting rooms after we'd only tried on one dress. so i went for the pretty one we both liked, and i bought it. then we leisurely-ish looked at shoes. i found the ones i've always, always dreamed of having - we were both looking at them and steph's like "they're hooker shoes." i started grinning, then cracking up because yes, they are! i've always wanted hooker shoes! whatever, they're beautiful.
the dress is gorgeous. you should see it. i originally wanted some kind of funky dress, like 50's style white with black polka dots and a red sash, with that thick starchy black stuff under the skirt. and i didn't find one exactly like that, but it was close. but the dress i got... it was the second one we saw, it's this gray silvery material, soft and shiny and it kind of shifts from silver to almost black. over it is this black mesh that splits right under the boob-area so you can see the pretty shiny material of the skirt. it's got these black shiny beads all over making this cool design - i love it. i really, truly love it. it's going to be just like my prom dress, i know it, i'm going to walk around the house in it for days for no reason.
i'm gonna go look at those pictures again. i love them.