i don't know what to do. i don't know where i'm going. i had goals this summer. get a job, start working. but now that i am working... that's all i do. i get up, go to work, come home, and sit around waiting until i get to do it again. and i keep wondering what's going to happen next. and the truth is, nothing. nothing's going to happen. i'm exactly where i'm going to be. this is my job. this is what will happen every day until i quit or get fired. ... what a thrill. i need a change already. not at work. but in my life. i need to meet someone new, to spend some time with new people. i need to do something other than sit around with brandon and tuey, or watch tv with evan and aaron, or spend time with my family. i need variety! please!
other than that, though, right now i'm in a really good mood. it's hard to explain. i was looking through some conversations i've had with scott and for some reason they just got me smiling. you know how sometimes all the good things anyone's ever said to you run through your head? it doesn't happen often for me. but right now it's happening, and all the small little details of my life, things that make the day easier, are showing up and i just feel good.