i really don't know... i mean i thought i was getting enough sleep. 9 hours or so every night. but, well... i guess not. today after i went to the aquatic center, my mom and i went over to costco to do some shopping. on the way there, though, her cheery attitude and constant nitpicking over every small detail of her job interview... and then going over every possible way i could get to work without having anyone drive me... i got fed up with it really fast. by the time we got to costco i was about ready to snap and start yelling at her. and she hadn't done anything wrong! i was just mad about.. something. i honestly don't know what. driving back, she made some comment about my t-shirt. i don't even remember what it was. but it did something to me and almost started crying. i felt horrible. when we got home the feeling just got worse, so i couldn't even look at myself in the mirror. i got into my camp gilead shirt and fell asleep for about an hour. i don't know, when i woke up, i felt a little better. but since then, all day i keep getting these mood swings. one minute i'm happy and excited and cheerful and the next i feel like yelling at anyone who talks to me. i don't think it's pms... i mean it could be, but getting into the personal details here, i haven't gotten my period in over 2 months so i just really don't know. but it's really strange. i've only ever had one other day like this. i think it was back in eighth grade or something. i was with liz and i just started crying for no reason. i wasn't stressed, nothing major was happening in my life... i just started crying and couldn't stop. it really freaked her out. i remember crying even harder just because i didn't know why i was so upset. today, it's not that i was crying... it was just that feeling. like i couldn't stand it anymore, but i didn't know what it was. the feeling's pretty much gone now, but it still feels weird when i think about it. i mean, really, i can't think of anything right now that could do that to me. nothing's wrong. sure, it's not as right as i wish it could be, but my life's alright.
anyway... enough of that confusing stuff. scott says reading this thing is like eavesdropping. who cares? i want people to read this stuff. that's why it's here. lately brent has been moaning about how he wants otter pops. and being reminded of them made me want them, too. so i grabbed a huge box of them at costco today. we've already gone through over ten each today. i think i'm just going to live off them for the next couple days, until we run out. then i'll start eating real food again.