ok go - get over it

there are some many different ways that could have gone. ways i would've wanted it to go, ways i wouldn't. as it is, i can't change it and now i'm stuck wondering.
yeah, you're probably wondering too now, huh?
well, work was alright. actually it wasn't bad at all. i scraped shit off bleachers for 4 hours, then walked home. brent and i went to the bank - i've got $200 cash on me right now, and $500 in the bank. not bad... but not good either. liz, jeff, and dan all showed up at my house at 3:20, dan just a couple seconds before liz and jeff. dyed dan's hair, it doesn't look bad, but truthfully i can't tell much of a difference. liz dyed her tips.
can you believe it! she got a vibrator! okay, so donovan bought it for her, but still. she brought it over and we were playing with it, freaked the hell out of jeff. i have a feeling he might be homophobic. remind me to bring that up with him.
okay, i'll tell you what happened now. you know how jeff likes me? well the feeling's mutual. and of course once people found out they started rubbing their faces in it and messing around and telling us what to do. it was so awkward, when he finally asked me out. it was literally right before he left, and well... okay, it reminded me of junior high. you know, when you're both just completely unsure about what to do? do you kiss, hug, shake hands? haha, okay maybe not that bad, but i think you get the point. it just felt weird, because of course i knew exactly how it was all going to happen, everyone else had already told me. ruined the surprise and any kind of chance for something original to happen.
ah well, c'est la vie. we'll see how it goes, y'know? and at least i know where i stand this time. i'm worth it, thank god. i'm not going to be led along and dropped off without a clue.
so now i have to just remember brent's advice. "take it easy, don't rush things and don't think about it too much."
i need a barq's.