last night was beautiful. absolutely gorgeous. not the night, silly, but what happened!
right around midnight brent came into my room, staked out my bed, and went off on how happy he is, how great life is, how no matter what might happen tomorrow, life is still good. it was amazing to hear him talk like this. finally, someone who understands how i feel! it's so hard for me to explain to people why, even when i'm at my worse, i still can't seem to really feel bad about anything. because i know, i know that no matter what, it will all be okay. maybe it will take time, but in the end, i'll be happy again.
so we talked about this, and many other things, until around 1 in the morning. not very long for some of my conversations, sure, but with brent it was amazing. i'm really glad he's happy with his life. he knows what he wants to do, if not for the rest of his life, then at least for the next year. he's excited about finally being able to be in charge of his own life. i'm a little jealous of the feeling, but it doesn't bother me too much. i'll get there. and for now, i'm happy with the fresh start i got. i'm going to take advantage of it for at least another year, before i start pining to start new again.