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Tuesday, January 11, 2005

third eye blind - losing a whole year

so... over at kenny's tonight, this song kept repeating over and over through my head.

I remember you and me used to spend
The whole goddamned day in bed
Losing a whole year
Hiding in your room we'd lay like dogs
And the phone would ring like a joke that's left unsaid

i walked off with his necklace on. of course. i can't remember anything when i'm around him.
anyway. placed sixth in hospitality, going to state. not surprised. weird, tho, last year i was sixth in marketing management. guess i'm destined to spend my life being the sixth.

OriginalWFunk: so even though u arent online my big idea was to take a day or multiday trip to the beach for tony's birthday this weekend maybe u could bring friends or wahtever u wanted im just really bored and need something to do. and since it is a holiday weekend i thought i run this by you.

that would be so freakin' awesome.
"Don't tell me how you hate your new foster home. If they're not beating you, consider yourself lucky. Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you'll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way."
White Oleander is my bible. i could read it a million times, and every word in it sinks into my brain like words straight from god. the best quote is right in that passage, tho. loneliness is the human condition. it always makes me a little sad to think about it, but it's also reassuring when i'm feeling alone. if it's true, then at least everyone else goes through the same thing, that even in being disconnected from everyone around me, we can all still connect on some level. we're all alone. it's a basic human fact, and once you admit it, you realize that no one is better off than anyone else. we're all the same, really.

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