still enya

it's been so long since i've talking to ryan... and here we go...

slaphappysappy86: so how are you
missinglunchbox: i'm doing alright... i don't know, i'm happy sometimes and other times not.
missinglunchbox: just, the usual up's and down's i guess.
missinglunchbox: it's a little disturbing how much jeff's starting to effect my moods, too.
slaphappysappy86: yeah...well if you ever need help...im here
slaphappysappy86: really...how
slaphappysappy86: like are you really into this Jeff guy?
missinglunchbox: yeah, unbelievably.
missinglunchbox: when i'm around him, i'm happy, completely and totally.
missinglunchbox: and when he's not around i feel kind of empty.
slaphappysappy86: thats awesome
slaphappysappy86: thats not
missinglunchbox: yeah
slaphappysappy86: i know how you feel so im right there with you
slaphappysappy86: brenda does that to me
slaphappysappy86: and i can't help but want to see her
missinglunchbox: well that's good. at least we can swap misery stories.
missinglunchbox: yeah with jeff, i see him practically every day and it's still not enough.
slaphappysappy86: yeah
slaphappysappy86: well i see brenda maybe twice a week...so its harder for her and I
slaphappysappy86: well at least me...i dont know about her
missinglunchbox: like he still tries to make time for his friends... i just want to bring jeff to every thing i do.
missinglunchbox: i'm sure she feels the same way
slaphappysappy86: yeah i know
missinglunchbox: i mean come on she's had a thing for you for years
slaphappysappy86: i know how you feel...i want to do things so i could bring brenda to them and stuff...like my band's shows and stuff
missinglunchbox: well with me, it's just dumb stupid ordinary stuff
slaphappysappy86: i still dont see why she has had a thing for me fo years...it boggles my mind
slaphappysappy86: its all good
slaphappysappy86: i know what you mean
missinglunchbox: i'll be watching tv and want him to be there with me. driving around running errands and wanting him to just be there while i push the cart around getting groceries
slaphappysappy86: i know...i know
missinglunchbox: but it's okay... we're going out with them, it's okay to be obsessive.
slaphappysappy86: yeah...i know....thats the beauty of it
missinglunchbox: lol, yeah.
missinglunchbox: finally! it's okay to be a stalker!
slaphappysappy86: YAY!!!
slaphappysappy86: WOOT
missinglunchbox: lol
missinglunchbox: it's so sad... but so unbelievably great at the same time
slaphappysappy86: yeah i know what you mean